A sad reality

The older I get, the more I understand that this world is not the beautiful place as it’s described. Not in the way of the nature-beings, instead it’s the human-beings who destroy the idea.

I had a best friend, once. We met on the elementary school and had been friends for years. Arguments in friendship can’t be avoided. Yes, I admit we argued much back then – cursing and hurting each other. But deep inside, I care for her as my sister despite of the stupid arguments we’ve been through. Until one day, I felt something wrong between us – the friendship is getting despair because we’re slowly drifting apart.

I didn’t try to seek for the reason because I was slowly giving up either. Then something happened. After years of unhealthy friendship, someone came to me and told me everything that has happened in the past.

“I pitied you. You always thought you’re surrounded by your true friends yet they’re actually your worst insulters. You couldn’t imagine how much they talked about you behind your back and being bitch smiling in front of you and went back insulting you again.”

And I was like…what? What do you mean? I mean…if they didn’t like me, then why did they visit me often on breaks and treat me so well? What the hell is going on with the people being so two-faced and hypocritical?

“Tell me who they are.”

Their names came out from her lips. To be honest, I wasn’t hurt, even a bit. I’ve seen it coming long before, but kept telling myself that it’s not right to think that way, that they’re my friends and won’t act so low. But reality comes out and slaps me hard, telling me that they’re the monsters I’ve been fighting for 2 years of my high school.

If you ask me if I want to go back to the time most people wish to go back to (aka high school), I will choose no. People are just so bad but timid at the same time. They attacked me on Ask.fm as an anonymous but never showed themselves in front of my eyes. It’s disgusting – how they act this way. It’s the lowest thing you can do to other people. I mean, if you don’t like someone, you don’t have to pretend to really like them, moreover hanging around for like most of the time! If you don’t like them, just avoid them. It’s as easy as 1+1! Why wasting time trying hard to treat them well today and the next day you just bitch them from their back? Do you think it will make you a saint? Do you think you’ll be known as the good person in your life? HA! No way, there’s no way people will think so.

But, I forgive them, for real. Still I don’t think I need them in my life anymore, though. Who needs parasites in their life? As I told my boyfriend about this matter, he just laughed it off and said, “Good then, we don’t need to have much money paid for tables on our wedding. LOL!”