A sad reality

The older I get, the more I understand that this world is not the beautiful place as it’s described. Not in the way of the nature-beings, instead it’s the human-beings who destroy the idea.

I had a best friend, once. We met on the elementary school and had been friends for years. Arguments in friendship can’t be avoided. Yes, I admit we argued much back then – cursing and hurting each other. But deep inside, I care for her as my sister despite of the stupid arguments we’ve been through. Until one day, I felt something wrong between us – the friendship is getting despair because we’re slowly drifting apart.

I didn’t try to seek for the reason because I was slowly giving up either. Then something happened. After years of unhealthy friendship, someone came to me and told me everything that has happened in the past.

“I pitied you. You always thought you’re surrounded by your true friends yet they’re actually your worst insulters. You couldn’t imagine how much they talked about you behind your back and being bitch smiling in front of you and went back insulting you again.”

And I was like…what? What do you mean? I mean…if they didn’t like me, then why did they visit me often on breaks and treat me so well? What the hell is going on with the people being so two-faced and hypocritical?

“Tell me who they are.”

Their names came out from her lips. To be honest, I wasn’t hurt, even a bit. I’ve seen it coming long before, but kept telling myself that it’s not right to think that way, that they’re my friends and won’t act so low. But reality comes out and slaps me hard, telling me that they’re the monsters I’ve been fighting for 2 years of my high school.

If you ask me if I want to go back to the time most people wish to go back to (aka high school), I will choose no. People are just so bad but timid at the same time. They attacked me on Ask.fm as an anonymous but never showed themselves in front of my eyes. It’s disgusting – how they act this way. It’s the lowest thing you can do to other people. I mean, if you don’t like someone, you don’t have to pretend to really like them, moreover hanging around for like most of the time! If you don’t like them, just avoid them. It’s as easy as 1+1! Why wasting time trying hard to treat them well today and the next day you just bitch them from their back? Do you think it will make you a saint? Do you think you’ll be known as the good person in your life? HA! No way, there’s no way people will think so.

But, I forgive them, for real. Still I don’t think I need them in my life anymore, though. Who needs parasites in their life? As I told my boyfriend about this matter, he just laughed it off and said, “Good then, we don’t need to have much money paid for tables on our wedding. LOL!”

2016 UPDATES!

Hi! First of all, I really apologize for being inactive for three months since I was getting busy with university and life... Last post was on November, I realized it. Sorry. (for my blog's readers)

In this post, I'm going to summarize what I did on last three months, perhaps the highlights of my life to keep my readers updated with my activities lol (why would anyone interested on what I did? ck.)

As for November, Binus TV celebrated Halloween and it was quite fun for me who didn't really enjoy the ghost party. We watched Babadook and I can't ever forget how creepy the voice of his saying "Babadookdookdook"!!!

Moving to December which was my favorite month of all. First, it's Christmas time! And I traveled to Batam, the birthplace of my boyfie! <3 He took me there to meet up with his family (that's so sweet!) I was there for 5 days (a very short period of visit since he had work to do on the 28th) His family is warm and sweet, and his mom is also a very lovely woman, and also a great cook! It's great since I love eating (nomnomnom)

Christmas Eve's dinner

On January, we had our first anniversary on 25th and since we run out of money (sadly), we didn't celebrate this very special occasion, or even giving each other a gift (duh). Rather we took wefies to heal our sadness :(

February 14th was a very special day for couples since it's Valentine's day. I got him a chocolate cake, and he got me nothing (I didn't expect much either). It was late at night (12am) when we celebrated the Valentine's day. Although I didn't expect much, I was a little bit upset of his unromantic side (I actually cried a bit out of sadness)

Done summarizing! I will try harder to work on this blog more often. So please don't leave me, readers! I'll try my best to keep updating this blog. It's bye from me. Ciao!

if she never met him

if she never met him
she would never know how it felt to fall asleep
in the arms of the loved one
she would never know how it felt to wake up
seeing his morning-innocent face
she would never longed for the scent
that trace all over her body
she would never ache
thru the empty cold sheet
or silent solitude

if she never met him
how would she be now?
would she be happier?
or sadder?

how could someone be so close yet so far?

"he's so close, yet so far. he's beyond reach now yet i could still feel his skin lingering on mine. but he's not here, not with me."

physically he's here. yes, with me. but deep inside i just feel we are miles apart. he never talked much anymore, i mean he just went home and greeted me and went to bed. i don't understand why, he might be tired though, but at least...please...i'm here. you used to say that i am your home but now i don't feel i am anymore.

Movie Review: Seventh Son

I just had some time to finish my movie list and decided to catch up on Seventh Son. I haven't watched the trailer yet nor heard about anything related to the plot. As I looked at the movie poster, I thought this would be like an action/war like movie? I thought there will be like this kind of country against another and they have their seventh son stands for them and saves the country. Turned out I was wrong, so here's some reviews for the movie.

So, the movie starts with a young man named Gregory (played by Jeff Bridges) and he's imprisoning a woman, whom I thought at first is his mother (idk maybe this is related to the 'son' thing. i know this is stupid lol) Gregory is a spook, whose job is to hunt the witches. Years passed and suddenly, that woman turned into a beast (from how the voice changed). In the next scene, the man of my dream, Kit Harington (who played as Jon Snow in GOT) appeared on the screen and I was like screaming inside, a little bit happy because I haven't seen him since his death in GOT ;) He played as Mr. Bradley, who was the best apprentice Gregory has ever had. My mind kept telling me that he's the seventh son since he came to the bar and acted so brave and cool when walking up to the old Gregory. AND ONCE AGAIN I FAILED AND SADLY HE DIED!!! (one more time I witnessed his death... idk maybe he's destined to play dead in every movie?!) Alright, before jumping to the death, he told Gregory that the bell was ringing, which meant that something happened related to dark spells, and the only one left in the town to save the victim is Gregory. Briefly, they went to the building and Gregory did his magic spell to cast out the evil possessed in the little girl's body. And that's when the evil started to communicate with him, asking him if he's forgotten her. And that's when I realized that the evil is the woman who is imprisoned in the first scene. Idk I thought that she was a dragon at first? Because at the first scene she was like flying out through the lock door and broke it with her enormous strong body of dragon, and now she's a spirit possessing people? Idk I still didn't get it at first that this is a story about witchcraft. Sorry... 

After a short fight, they succeeded in catching Mother Malkin (name of that wicked witch) and threw her into the cage to be burned. Unfortunately she got Bradley (Kit Harrington) into the cage and took his spirit away. Gregory couldn't do anything but to burn the cage but turned out Mother Malkin could escape and turned herself into a dragon then flew away. I heard Gregory said that it's ten years of waste and then I was like YES WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BURN BRADLEY?!?!?! 

Moving on to the next scene (i don't wanna spill out much here) there is another hot guy named Tom Ward (Ben Barnes) and briefly he was picked by Gregory as his apprentice to face Mother Malkin. So this Mr. Ward has this kind of ability to have vision of the future. And he's seen Gregory, and a girl named Alice (Alicia Vikander) in it. He met Alice in the city while she was caught by citizens as a witch. Tom wanted to help her but he admitted to the citizens that he was Gregory's apprentice and he would finish this girl by himself. Moving on to the first night with Gregory, he told Tom to stay in his room but at night Tom heard somebody calling out for help so he went out from his room. Turned out it's the test Gregory set for him and he failed. The second test is to use the magic wand but still because he lacked of skills and experiences, he failed. 

In a nutshell, a witch named Urag, one of Malkin's followers was captured. When Gregory asked Tom to burn Urag, Tom felt that it wasn't right. So he left and met Alice. Turned out Alice is the daughter of Malkin's follower, which made her a witch. But Tom fell in love with her, so does Alice. They had a wonderful moment together but Tom suddenly had a vision of Gregory being killed by Malkin. And he knew that he must be there to save Gregory.

Gregory, Tom, and Tusk (Gregory's assistant) went for a long journey to face Mother Malkin. In between, Alice was there, meeting Tom and asked him to leave with her. But they were caught by Gregory and as a spook, he told Tom to kill her. But Tom, who was in love with Alice, protected her and let her go without realizing that she has stolen the necklace Tom's mother has given to him. The necklace got the power to destroy Malkin. Tom then chased Alice into the woods, followed by Gregory and Tusk. 

Gregory then captured by Malkin's follower, Radu. There, Malkin tried to seduce Gregory with her magic and almost succeeded before Alice pulled away the necklace (which was the source of her power). Malkin was surprised and turned herself into a dragon and chased Alice. Alice's mother would not let her daughter killed, and had a fierce fight with Malkin in the air. Gregory arrived and asked Alice about his necklace, and Alice told him that she did it to protect him. But one of Radu's minions caught them and the fight began. With the necklace and the magic wand on his hand, Tom fought all the minions and also the witches by burning them.

Malkin was left alone and walked into the building, losing most of her power when she fought in the air. Gregory told Tom that he would finish this alone. Malkin asked Gregory if he's once loved her and Gregory said yes. But now it has changed into hatred. When he took out the blade, Malkin used rest of her power to kill Gregory. But fortunately, Tom threw the blade right to Malkin's stomach and burned her with the magic wand. Last word slipped from Malkin's tongue, "I will haunt you" (IT WAS TOTALLY SCARY) 

In the end, Tom decided to be a spook. Knowing that they couldn't be together, Alice had to let Tom go, but she made Tom sure that they'd meet again someday. I just wish she didn't turn like Malkin... Gregory left Tom and his new assistant, Tusk with his new job. And the bell striked...

Total duration of this movie is 102 minutes and the rating itself in IMDb is 5.5/10. I myself consider this is kind of my movie because I love witchcraft thingy, and I also love Gregory's character here, where somehow a cold person is shown smiling and laughing at the middle of the scene. I just kinda regret I watched it so late... For myself, I'll give this 8/10! :) Looking forward to finish the next move in my list! But I have to sleep now because I have class tomorrow, so bye! ;)

not even a single hug

tears flowing
lips kept mumbling unclear stories
heart wished to be comforted
but he just stared blankly
she expected some consoling words
yet all she got was him walking away
not even a word
not even a single hug

Lucifer - House For Sale

"House For Sale" was written by Nielsen, Tim / Kinney, Kevin Gerard.

The sign went up one rainy morning
just a couple hours after dawn
Mrs Hadley peaked out through her curtains
wondering what was going on
The neighbors said over coffee cups
That nice young couple is breaking up
And in the living room
The linen and the crystals
sit all packed and set to go
I tell myself once more
I won't be here in spring
to see my roses grow
And all the things you tried to fix
The roof still leaks,the door still sticks

House for sale
You can read it on the sign
House for sale
It was yours and it was mine
and tomorrow some strangers
will be climbing up the stairs
to the bedroom filled with memories
the one,we used to share

I know you always loved that painting
from that funny little shop in Spain
Remember how we found it
when we ducked in from that sudden summer rain
but I think I keep the silver tray
my mother give us on a wedding day

House for sale
You can read it on the sign
House for sale
It was yours and it was mine
and tomorrow some strangers
will be climbing up the stairs
to the bedroom filled with memories
the one,we used to share

"A song will become powerful when you undergo its writer's story."

NOBODY WOULD CHOOSE PAIN, NOBODY WOULD CHOOSE SHAME

(case sensitive but fuck the judges)

Despite of my religion has taught me, I write this based on humanity.

Homosexual is legalized. They are happy to be free. Law doesn't take them apart anymore. But still, even law can't shut the judgmental cunts. I'm not saying that you can't have the thought against the gay and lesbian (according to your culture or religion). But what I'm saying here is that you don't have the right to point out your finger and bully or insult or make them feel ashamed of what they commit.

NOBODY WOULD CHOOSE PAIN, NOBODY WOULD CHOOSE SHAME. If they know they'll be hurt and rejected, why would they choose to be one? BECAUSE THEY DON'T CHOOSE TO BE GAY OR LESBIAN. THEY FALL IN LOVE - like all normal people do. I believe that no religion EVER concede the homosexuality. But, I truly believe either, that no religion EVER teaches us to point out other's sins and judge them. I believe we are meant to admonish, not to accuse.

Despite of religions and faith, I just want people to restore their humanity. It's fine to have your own thought of homosexuality, whether you agree or disagree with it. No one has right to control what you have to believe and no one COULD force you to. But remember, you  can decide not to hurt, accuse, or judge them. Why hurt people if you can love them? Why being disgusted if you actually adhere to your religion? Love. Just love. If you can't do it, just stop insulting or hurting them. They have feelings too. They are also human. And you have to understand that.

Septrani Lim.

Never once

I miss my home

Where countless obnoxious things happened

Shouts, screams, tears, curses, arguments

But never once we’re parted

I miss my home

Where countless picturesque memories rooted

Laughs, teases, a family’s Sunday service, vacations, movie night

Never once we thought of separation

I miss Mom

I miss coming back home having her cooking for dinner

Tasting the most delicious flavor Heaven could ever give for a man

Never once I thought of longing the taste

I miss my sister

How we always end up taking care of each other

Despite of the little arguments and fracas we’ve been through

Never once I thought of missing our small tiffs

I miss Dad

Whom I was the closest to in the family

And understood me the best

Never once I thought that he’s turned to be the most distant

Never once I thought my life would take its turn against me this way

Never once

Spill of thoughts

They might be right about you,
but they might be wrong either.
People talk about others,
it's a properly act in this world.
But that proper act they do doesn't define WHO you are
and WHO you supposed to be.
You are who you would want to become.
You are the one who decided what to do with your life.
Not them,
not by others' perceptions and opinions about your life.
If you act as you want to please every one of them,
you will NEVER succeed.
Why?
Because people see you in certain point of views.
Many will stand up with you,
and many more will stand against you.
But no matter what happens,
you won't give up,
you will never give yourself up because of them.
Do what your heart tells you to do.
Be kind and courageous.
Smile more,
love more.
I'm not just telling you to survive this world.
I'm telling you to enjoy living your life for you've given the opportunity.
Don't mind the people who keep dragging you down.
Keep working on your dreams,
no matter what.
No matter how cruel this world treats you,
no matter how big the burden they give you.
Just keep this promise sounded in your mind,
that one day they will see you
and regret not to stand up with you
at the first place.

CB: Cleaning up the Campus Part 2

Name: Septrani Galib
NIM: 1801413281

We finished our task by cleaning up the areas around campus. It was raining (again) when we did our task but we finished it well. Here are some footage:

Keep ourselves clean by washing our hands after picking up the rubbish

But first lemme take a selfie lol

Things to do when you meet a celebrity

• tell them they inspired you
• politely ask for a picture/hug (if the situation allows it)
• ask them what to expect next from them (relating to their career)
• don’t touch them without their consent
• thank them for the things they do
• tell them you appreciate their hard work
• don’t say anything you wouldn’t say to a stranger
• don’t yell at them
• don’t sexually harass them (that includes sexual “jokes” you might have read on tumblr)
• do not mob them
• don’t ask them about rumours
• just be a proper human being

They are human beings (and strangers) and don’t owe you shit.

source: niallocked

CB: Cleaning up the Campus

Name: Septrani Galib
NIM: 1801413281

We continued our duty by cleaning up the areas around Anggrek Campus (Basement, Canteen, Admission, and Level-1). Found out there were so many rubbish around the areas. It was raining at the moment, so we had to do push the water to the lower level. Here are some footage:

1. Basement

2. Canteen

3. Admission

4. Level-1

We will be having the cleaning service at the next Tuesday, April 14, 2015.

CB: Sanitation Socialization (Project: Day 2)

Name: Septrani Galib
NIM: 1801413281

We received a project from our college to do a sanitation socialization (under Teach For Indonesia management) at BTJM (Batagor Jepang Takashimura). It is located near Syahdan Campus, Binus University. Our duty is to socialize the sanitation and cleanliness in the shop. We came for the second time to BJTM and did some cleaning and tidied up the inner room. Here are some photos which were taken on the second day of socialization (Saturday, March 21).

The table must be clean so the customer will eat well

Hmmm such a messy room, huh?

Put things onto its proper place

Yay! We've finished cleaning!!! ^^

The day passed with tidying up each edge of the store. We also didn't forget to remind the waiters to keep the store clean and tidy. We thanked the owner of BJTM for giving us an opportunity to do our duty here.

CB: Sanitation Socialization (Project: Day 1)

Name: Septrani Galib
NIM: 1801413281 

We received a project from our college to do a sanitation socialization (under Teach For Indonesia management) at BTJM (Batagor Jepang Takashimura). It is located near Syahdan Campus, Binus University. Our duty is to socialize the sanitation and cleanliness in the shop. Here are some photos which were taken on the first day of socialization (Thursday, March 19).

The shop itself was quite clean already so we didn't do much on cleaning. However, we didn't forget to remind the waiters to keep the shop's cleanliness and sanitation. We decided to visit the shop on next Saturday (March 21, 2015)

WHAT?

she's not less crazy
than those aggressive
mental deranged gonzo in the asylum
unlike those raving mad hatters
she's free
locked up in her own dimension
fuck the world
and its one-sided judges and justice
no one beseems to tell her what to do
or that she's behaving inappropriate
screw them

Thanks God I've Found You

I just feel so thankful for being deeply loved. 'Cause for all this time, I always thought I was worthless. No one was ever seriously wanted me. They always took me for granted. Never valued me. Treated me like their doll, hurt me like I had no feeling. That's why I come out colder now and speak less.

But he makes me feel worthy and loved. He treats me like I want to be treated by a gentleman. We both may be young, have less experience in relationship, but I do feel so comfortable in love with him. He respects me, my decision, he supports me. He just knows me for weeks but it feels like he has gone through inside me, knowing all goods and flaws I have. I'm not perfect, and he knows it. I have too many flaws and not so confident to show myself. I don't know if he could accept me for who I am or not in the future, but I hope he will. Because it takes so much courage, for me, to trust myself, my heart to someone. Because I'm scared to be hurt again, I'm scared I'd turn to someone I don't want to be.

And I think I never had someone loved me as he loves me in my entire life. Of course, I had people loved me before, but I never felt this kind of love, this is just too hard to be explained. I just feel so thankful.

THE POWER OF PRAYER (part 2)

"Every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a something that's meant to come."

My family just went through a huge problem few days ago. It's just like my life has crumbled into pieces when I knew it. To be honest, I've never faced this kind of problem in my entire life. And I was the only one who supposed to be stronger than anyone in my family. My mother was stuck, depressed, at the edge of the cliff, and she couldn't even think straight anymore. And she decided to jump. She took three pills of aspirin and ended up hurting all over her body. My sister was only 14. And of course she went to school. How could she manage to get herself up to school while leaving my mom at home with tons of medicines that could kill her? She got stressed. And I lived faraway from home. No one could look for her.

My father was so disappointed with my mother, so he just locked himself in my previous room and slept there. He just went out to drive my sister to school. I rarely talked to him, that's why I didn't know how he felt on that moment. I was with my mom via phone all the time, to make sure that she's okay and didn't do something foolish.

The first day hearing about that problem, about my mother who has given up everything, I was mentally broke down. I kept saying to God to protect her because I couldn't be there. I kept in faith, told myself that He is still here with me, that He will always be by my side. He'll never leave me, in any condition, because I'm His child. My sister called me and cried the entire phone call. I told her to pray and be calm because she's the only one who could save our mother. I put down the phone and went to pray. Pray and pray. Because I believe a prayer works. God works through prayer. And I made a promise, I would write this story up to this site. So the first day went by like that...

The second day went by without any bad things but suddenly the third day came and it was today. My sister just called me and she was cheerful already, so we talked about light topics. And then my mother took the phone and she's cheerful too. AMAZINGLY, GOD WORKS. I don't know, this is just amazing, you know. I REALLY NEED HIS HELP AND HE'S ALWAYS THERE! So I just want people to see his amazing works through my life. It's like there's this kind of problem to make me stronger and also inspire people. I want people to feel GOD in their life. To feel His presence.

So, guys, I want you to PRAY. To keep in FAITH. Don't give up. When you think there's no answer, keep PRAYING. He will definitely answer. Just remember that NO is also an answer. He will answer your prayer in the exact time. He won't harm you. Because you are His precious. God bless you.

"YOU are where you're SUPPOSED to be at this very moment. Every EXPERIENCE is part of God's DIVINE PLAN."

Septrani Lim

THE POWER OF PRAYER

I always believe at the power of prayer. When we are in need, we can always come to Him. A lot of things happen in our life and we cannot refuse that we need him, that we can't stand alone.
So this happened to me two days ago. I got my neck strain in the morning and okay you guys may think that this is a small case but for me this is crucial because it's really bothering me when I was working (because I have to sit like 4 hours straight). I tried to reduce its pain by massaging it but it didn't work at all. So yeah my mood was kinda bad throughout the day... That night before I slept, as usual I went to pray. It didn't work at first so I just laid myself to sleep. But it kept hurting me so much that I decided to pray one more time. I put my right hand onto my neck and prayed. First time, nothing happened. Second time, the same. And the third time, I felt something like wind or cooling sensation tingling all over my neck, and it feels so cozy that I fell asleep. Guess what? I woke up with no pain at all! WOW! And I was just like, this is amazing, and I told my roommate about this, and she also cheered over God's work.
The point of sharing this experience is I want people to have faith, to believe, that a prayer does work! It may not be answered right at the moment, but God will answer in the exact time. Your life is His, He won't betray you. He know what is the best for you. He know when is the exact time to fulfill your needs! Keep in faith and believe in the power of prayer! God bless you!

SEEMS LIKE GETTING DRIVING LICENSE IS A TREND FOR IDOLS NOWADAYS

You may be thinking the same as me: "Why do they need a driving license? Don't they go anywhere with a van?"

Today, EXO's Chanyeol was spotted test driving by a fan.

D.O, Kai, and Sehun also reported to obtain their driving license today.  These three guys were often seen visiting the Department of Motor Vehicles. Although Kai once has failed on his driving test, he still made it till the end. And D.O has been waiting for the driving license since last year.  I'm so proud of them, really.

Tao was seen taking a driving test because he uploaded a video on his Instagram but then deleted it. But yeah fans are fast so they've taken the video and posted it on Youtube. If Tao really got his driving license, he would buy Lamborghini Veneno Roadster since he's so rich lmao

No one really knows why they're getting the driving license but let's hope they will have their own car and drive freely anywhere they want. And of course, pray for their safety too in driving.