if she never met him

if she never met him
she would never know how it felt to fall asleep
in the arms of the loved one
she would never know how it felt to wake up
seeing his morning-innocent face
she would never longed for the scent
that trace all over her body
she would never ache
thru the empty cold sheet
or silent solitude

if she never met him
how would she be now?
would she be happier?
or sadder?

how could someone be so close yet so far?

"he's so close, yet so far. he's beyond reach now yet i could still feel his skin lingering on mine. but he's not here, not with me."

physically he's here. yes, with me. but deep inside i just feel we are miles apart. he never talked much anymore, i mean he just went home and greeted me and went to bed. i don't understand why, he might be tired though, but at least...please...i'm here. you used to say that i am your home but now i don't feel i am anymore.

Movie Review: Seventh Son

I just had some time to finish my movie list and decided to catch up on Seventh Son. I haven't watched the trailer yet nor heard about anything related to the plot. As I looked at the movie poster, I thought this would be like an action/war like movie? I thought there will be like this kind of country against another and they have their seventh son stands for them and saves the country. Turned out I was wrong, so here's some reviews for the movie.

So, the movie starts with a young man named Gregory (played by Jeff Bridges) and he's imprisoning a woman, whom I thought at first is his mother (idk maybe this is related to the 'son' thing. i know this is stupid lol) Gregory is a spook, whose job is to hunt the witches. Years passed and suddenly, that woman turned into a beast (from how the voice changed). In the next scene, the man of my dream, Kit Harington (who played as Jon Snow in GOT) appeared on the screen and I was like screaming inside, a little bit happy because I haven't seen him since his death in GOT ;) He played as Mr. Bradley, who was the best apprentice Gregory has ever had. My mind kept telling me that he's the seventh son since he came to the bar and acted so brave and cool when walking up to the old Gregory. AND ONCE AGAIN I FAILED AND SADLY HE DIED!!! (one more time I witnessed his death... idk maybe he's destined to play dead in every movie?!) Alright, before jumping to the death, he told Gregory that the bell was ringing, which meant that something happened related to dark spells, and the only one left in the town to save the victim is Gregory. Briefly, they went to the building and Gregory did his magic spell to cast out the evil possessed in the little girl's body. And that's when the evil started to communicate with him, asking him if he's forgotten her. And that's when I realized that the evil is the woman who is imprisoned in the first scene. Idk I thought that she was a dragon at first? Because at the first scene she was like flying out through the lock door and broke it with her enormous strong body of dragon, and now she's a spirit possessing people? Idk I still didn't get it at first that this is a story about witchcraft. Sorry... 

After a short fight, they succeeded in catching Mother Malkin (name of that wicked witch) and threw her into the cage to be burned. Unfortunately she got Bradley (Kit Harrington) into the cage and took his spirit away. Gregory couldn't do anything but to burn the cage but turned out Mother Malkin could escape and turned herself into a dragon then flew away. I heard Gregory said that it's ten years of waste and then I was like YES WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BURN BRADLEY?!?!?! 

Moving on to the next scene (i don't wanna spill out much here) there is another hot guy named Tom Ward (Ben Barnes) and briefly he was picked by Gregory as his apprentice to face Mother Malkin. So this Mr. Ward has this kind of ability to have vision of the future. And he's seen Gregory, and a girl named Alice (Alicia Vikander) in it. He met Alice in the city while she was caught by citizens as a witch. Tom wanted to help her but he admitted to the citizens that he was Gregory's apprentice and he would finish this girl by himself. Moving on to the first night with Gregory, he told Tom to stay in his room but at night Tom heard somebody calling out for help so he went out from his room. Turned out it's the test Gregory set for him and he failed. The second test is to use the magic wand but still because he lacked of skills and experiences, he failed. 

In a nutshell, a witch named Urag, one of Malkin's followers was captured. When Gregory asked Tom to burn Urag, Tom felt that it wasn't right. So he left and met Alice. Turned out Alice is the daughter of Malkin's follower, which made her a witch. But Tom fell in love with her, so does Alice. They had a wonderful moment together but Tom suddenly had a vision of Gregory being killed by Malkin. And he knew that he must be there to save Gregory.

Gregory, Tom, and Tusk (Gregory's assistant) went for a long journey to face Mother Malkin. In between, Alice was there, meeting Tom and asked him to leave with her. But they were caught by Gregory and as a spook, he told Tom to kill her. But Tom, who was in love with Alice, protected her and let her go without realizing that she has stolen the necklace Tom's mother has given to him. The necklace got the power to destroy Malkin. Tom then chased Alice into the woods, followed by Gregory and Tusk. 

Gregory then captured by Malkin's follower, Radu. There, Malkin tried to seduce Gregory with her magic and almost succeeded before Alice pulled away the necklace (which was the source of her power). Malkin was surprised and turned herself into a dragon and chased Alice. Alice's mother would not let her daughter killed, and had a fierce fight with Malkin in the air. Gregory arrived and asked Alice about his necklace, and Alice told him that she did it to protect him. But one of Radu's minions caught them and the fight began. With the necklace and the magic wand on his hand, Tom fought all the minions and also the witches by burning them.

Malkin was left alone and walked into the building, losing most of her power when she fought in the air. Gregory told Tom that he would finish this alone. Malkin asked Gregory if he's once loved her and Gregory said yes. But now it has changed into hatred. When he took out the blade, Malkin used rest of her power to kill Gregory. But fortunately, Tom threw the blade right to Malkin's stomach and burned her with the magic wand. Last word slipped from Malkin's tongue, "I will haunt you" (IT WAS TOTALLY SCARY) 

In the end, Tom decided to be a spook. Knowing that they couldn't be together, Alice had to let Tom go, but she made Tom sure that they'd meet again someday. I just wish she didn't turn like Malkin... Gregory left Tom and his new assistant, Tusk with his new job. And the bell striked...

Total duration of this movie is 102 minutes and the rating itself in IMDb is 5.5/10. I myself consider this is kind of my movie because I love witchcraft thingy, and I also love Gregory's character here, where somehow a cold person is shown smiling and laughing at the middle of the scene. I just kinda regret I watched it so late... For myself, I'll give this 8/10! :) Looking forward to finish the next move in my list! But I have to sleep now because I have class tomorrow, so bye! ;)

not even a single hug

tears flowing
lips kept mumbling unclear stories
heart wished to be comforted
but he just stared blankly
she expected some consoling words
yet all she got was him walking away
not even a word
not even a single hug

Lucifer - House For Sale

"House For Sale" was written by Nielsen, Tim / Kinney, Kevin Gerard.

The sign went up one rainy morning
just a couple hours after dawn
Mrs Hadley peaked out through her curtains
wondering what was going on
The neighbors said over coffee cups
That nice young couple is breaking up
And in the living room
The linen and the crystals
sit all packed and set to go
I tell myself once more
I won't be here in spring
to see my roses grow
And all the things you tried to fix
The roof still leaks,the door still sticks

House for sale
You can read it on the sign
House for sale
It was yours and it was mine
and tomorrow some strangers
will be climbing up the stairs
to the bedroom filled with memories
the one,we used to share

I know you always loved that painting
from that funny little shop in Spain
Remember how we found it
when we ducked in from that sudden summer rain
but I think I keep the silver tray
my mother give us on a wedding day

House for sale
You can read it on the sign
House for sale
It was yours and it was mine
and tomorrow some strangers
will be climbing up the stairs
to the bedroom filled with memories
the one,we used to share

"A song will become powerful when you undergo its writer's story."

NOBODY WOULD CHOOSE PAIN, NOBODY WOULD CHOOSE SHAME

(case sensitive but fuck the judges)

Despite of my religion has taught me, I write this based on humanity.

Homosexual is legalized. They are happy to be free. Law doesn't take them apart anymore. But still, even law can't shut the judgmental cunts. I'm not saying that you can't have the thought against the gay and lesbian (according to your culture or religion). But what I'm saying here is that you don't have the right to point out your finger and bully or insult or make them feel ashamed of what they commit.

NOBODY WOULD CHOOSE PAIN, NOBODY WOULD CHOOSE SHAME. If they know they'll be hurt and rejected, why would they choose to be one? BECAUSE THEY DON'T CHOOSE TO BE GAY OR LESBIAN. THEY FALL IN LOVE - like all normal people do. I believe that no religion EVER concede the homosexuality. But, I truly believe either, that no religion EVER teaches us to point out other's sins and judge them. I believe we are meant to admonish, not to accuse.

Despite of religions and faith, I just want people to restore their humanity. It's fine to have your own thought of homosexuality, whether you agree or disagree with it. No one has right to control what you have to believe and no one COULD force you to. But remember, you  can decide not to hurt, accuse, or judge them. Why hurt people if you can love them? Why being disgusted if you actually adhere to your religion? Love. Just love. If you can't do it, just stop insulting or hurting them. They have feelings too. They are also human. And you have to understand that.

Septrani Lim.

Never once

I miss my home

Where countless obnoxious things happened

Shouts, screams, tears, curses, arguments

But never once we’re parted

I miss my home

Where countless picturesque memories rooted

Laughs, teases, a family’s Sunday service, vacations, movie night

Never once we thought of separation

I miss Mom

I miss coming back home having her cooking for dinner

Tasting the most delicious flavor Heaven could ever give for a man

Never once I thought of longing the taste

I miss my sister

How we always end up taking care of each other

Despite of the little arguments and fracas we’ve been through

Never once I thought of missing our small tiffs

I miss Dad

Whom I was the closest to in the family

And understood me the best

Never once I thought that he’s turned to be the most distant

Never once I thought my life would take its turn against me this way

Never once