THE POWER OF PRAYER (part 2)

"Every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a something that's meant to come."

My family just went through a huge problem few days ago. It's just like my life has crumbled into pieces when I knew it. To be honest, I've never faced this kind of problem in my entire life. And I was the only one who supposed to be stronger than anyone in my family. My mother was stuck, depressed, at the edge of the cliff, and she couldn't even think straight anymore. And she decided to jump. She took three pills of aspirin and ended up hurting all over her body. My sister was only 14. And of course she went to school. How could she manage to get herself up to school while leaving my mom at home with tons of medicines that could kill her? She got stressed. And I lived faraway from home. No one could look for her.

My father was so disappointed with my mother, so he just locked himself in my previous room and slept there. He just went out to drive my sister to school. I rarely talked to him, that's why I didn't know how he felt on that moment. I was with my mom via phone all the time, to make sure that she's okay and didn't do something foolish.

The first day hearing about that problem, about my mother who has given up everything, I was mentally broke down. I kept saying to God to protect her because I couldn't be there. I kept in faith, told myself that He is still here with me, that He will always be by my side. He'll never leave me, in any condition, because I'm His child. My sister called me and cried the entire phone call. I told her to pray and be calm because she's the only one who could save our mother. I put down the phone and went to pray. Pray and pray. Because I believe a prayer works. God works through prayer. And I made a promise, I would write this story up to this site. So the first day went by like that...

The second day went by without any bad things but suddenly the third day came and it was today. My sister just called me and she was cheerful already, so we talked about light topics. And then my mother took the phone and she's cheerful too. AMAZINGLY, GOD WORKS. I don't know, this is just amazing, you know. I REALLY NEED HIS HELP AND HE'S ALWAYS THERE! So I just want people to see his amazing works through my life. It's like there's this kind of problem to make me stronger and also inspire people. I want people to feel GOD in their life. To feel His presence.

So, guys, I want you to PRAY. To keep in FAITH. Don't give up. When you think there's no answer, keep PRAYING. He will definitely answer. Just remember that NO is also an answer. He will answer your prayer in the exact time. He won't harm you. Because you are His precious. God bless you.

"YOU are where you're SUPPOSED to be at this very moment. Every EXPERIENCE is part of God's DIVINE PLAN."

Septrani Lim

THE POWER OF PRAYER

I always believe at the power of prayer. When we are in need, we can always come to Him. A lot of things happen in our life and we cannot refuse that we need him, that we can't stand alone.
So this happened to me two days ago. I got my neck strain in the morning and okay you guys may think that this is a small case but for me this is crucial because it's really bothering me when I was working (because I have to sit like 4 hours straight). I tried to reduce its pain by massaging it but it didn't work at all. So yeah my mood was kinda bad throughout the day... That night before I slept, as usual I went to pray. It didn't work at first so I just laid myself to sleep. But it kept hurting me so much that I decided to pray one more time. I put my right hand onto my neck and prayed. First time, nothing happened. Second time, the same. And the third time, I felt something like wind or cooling sensation tingling all over my neck, and it feels so cozy that I fell asleep. Guess what? I woke up with no pain at all! WOW! And I was just like, this is amazing, and I told my roommate about this, and she also cheered over God's work.
The point of sharing this experience is I want people to have faith, to believe, that a prayer does work! It may not be answered right at the moment, but God will answer in the exact time. Your life is His, He won't betray you. He know what is the best for you. He know when is the exact time to fulfill your needs! Keep in faith and believe in the power of prayer! God bless you!

SEEMS LIKE GETTING DRIVING LICENSE IS A TREND FOR IDOLS NOWADAYS

You may be thinking the same as me: "Why do they need a driving license? Don't they go anywhere with a van?"

Today, EXO's Chanyeol was spotted test driving by a fan.

D.O, Kai, and Sehun also reported to obtain their driving license today.  These three guys were often seen visiting the Department of Motor Vehicles. Although Kai once has failed on his driving test, he still made it till the end. And D.O has been waiting for the driving license since last year.  I'm so proud of them, really.

Tao was seen taking a driving test because he uploaded a video on his Instagram but then deleted it. But yeah fans are fast so they've taken the video and posted it on Youtube. If Tao really got his driving license, he would buy Lamborghini Veneno Roadster since he's so rich lmao

No one really knows why they're getting the driving license but let's hope they will have their own car and drive freely anywhere they want. And of course, pray for their safety too in driving.

WEEK 3 DAY 5 FOOD & EXERCISE JOURNAL

Woke up and drank a lot of water (I'm dehydrated). Had my detox water. Got a glass of greek yogurt with strawberries for breakfast. Hit the gym at 8. Did cardios for 40 mins and 2 sets of sit up and 30s of plank. COUNTED CALS: 113 cals
Post workout snack: Fitbar (110 cals)
Went shopping with mommy and came back with lots of veggies so I had an idea to make a veggie soup. Here is the recipe. It contains 330 cals.
Had a banana and peanut butter on toast for mid-day snack. COUNTED CALS: 343 cals.

I made a mixed tuna and green peas for dinner. Fried them with olive oil. COUNTED CALS: 282.5 cals.
I didn't do any exercise tonight because I got PMS and not feeling well on my tummy. I also didn't take my night detox today.

Review ended here. SUMMARY COUNTED CALS: 1178.5 (this is only an estimation)

Keep in faith! We can do it! xx -much love-

SOUP RECIPE: HIGH ANTIOXIDANT VEGGIE SOUP (VEGAN CAN TAKE IT)

Broccoli and chicory are known as antioxidant for our body while carrot is admitted as world's healthiest food because of the vitamins it got. Tofu and egg are the great source of protein. And we will combine all of this in a very healthy soup! Let's start!

Ingredients you'll need:

1. 1 stalk of small broccoli (5" long): 48 cals
2. 1 cup of chopped chicory: 7 cals
3. 1 medium carrots: 25 cals
4. 1 medium onions: 28 cals
5. 1 serving of egg tofu tube: 60 cals
6. 1 large egg: 72 cals
7. 2 tbsp of vegetarian tom yam paste (you can add another paste if you want but I choose this because of the low cals): 90 cals

Steps:

1. Wash all those colorful veggies (except for onions) and drain them.
2. Tear the broccoli and the chicory (I only use half of them). Cut the carrots into small pieces (I only use half of it). Slice the onions thinly.
3. Slice the egg tofu into small pieces.
4. Bring water to boil (I use 1500cc of water) and put the vegetarian tom yam paste into the water. Close the lid and wait for 3 minutes.
5. Put the onions, carrots, and egg tofu into the pan and let them simmer for 5 mins. (Carrots is difficult to be soft so it must be put first)
6. Put the remaining veggies and an egg into the pan. Let them simmer for about 3 mins. (Broccoli is easily overcooked so we must not boil it too long)
7. Pour the soup into small plate and it's ready to be served!

Total cals: 330 cals
Have a nice lunch, sweetie! xx -much love-

WEEK 3 DAY 4 FOOD & EXERCISE JOURNAL

I woke up at 7 this morning because of the 'Body Language' class at the gym. Slept for about 7 hours which is not healthy because I have to sleep 8 hours (not less not more). I drank up my weight loss detox liquid (which I've shared in another post) and had a bowl of oatmeal. I put in 250ml of low-fat milk into it. COUNTED CALS: 234 cals
I hit the gym at 8.30 and decided to do cardios instead of 'Body Language' because it's too crowded and my friend didn't want to do it. So we just doubled the cardios and did sit-ups, crunch, and plank. After that, we went to sauna for 10 mins. I forgot to count the cals I burned this morning :(
We went home at 12.30. I took a Fitbar I bought yesterday and ate it as post workout snack. One serving of Fitbar contains 110 cals. I had 1/2 bowl of white rice for lunch with luncheon meat and bitter gourd. Since my muscles needed to be repaired so eating protein was essential. COUNTED CALS: 352 cals
I made a energizing melon smoothie (the recipe will be shared soon) for my mid-day snack. Cals per serving: 197.28 cals
DINNER TIME! YEAY! I didn't need to be so strict here since my body would also burn fat when I sleep later (that's why we got our abdomen flat in the next morning). So I had the same meal with lunch but without bitter gourd. I substituted my veggies need with spicy nori (seaweed sheet). COUNTED CALS: 193 cals
I ended up my day with 1 set of crunch (1 set = 15 times) and running up down through the stairs for 4 times. I just had my weight loss detox liquid for the night.

Review ended here. SUMMARY COUNTED CALS: 1086.28 (this is only an estimation)

Keep in faith! WE CAN DO IT! xx -much love-

WEIGHT LOSS DETOX LIQUID

This weight loss detox liquid will help you in weight loss. Drink it after you wake up and before you sleep (in empty stomach).

Recipe:

- 2/3 cup of boiling water

- 1 tsp of honey

- 1/2 tsp of cinnamon powder

- 1/2 lemon juice

It tastes weird actually but let's drink it and be HEALTHY! ;)

WEEK 3 DAY 3 FOOD & EXERCISE JOURNAL

I decided to log in foods I ate and exercise I did today to get a review in the end of my day. Since I was out of fruits this morning, so I went to school for breakfast. (I should have eaten oatmeal & banana) I bought a piece of bread with so many cheddar cheese in it. I didn't regret buying it because I got an empty stomach and...A BIG TEST in front of me! Breakfast was so necessary this morning! (Well it's necessary all the time, I guess) CALS: 246 cals
9.30 AM: My stomach was growling like a hungry wolf so I decided to buy something to eat. RICE everywhere! (Since I live in Indonesia, rice cannot be set apart from us). So I just bought a lunchbox and ate half of the rice. I finished the tempe and veggie stir-fry and also the fried chicken which I regretted SO SO MUCH! CALS: 479.25 cals
I went back from school at 1 PM and prepared myself to meet my girls at local mall. I got a bowl of bean curd without any toppings or sugar added for my mid-day meal. After a very long walk and never-ended(?) shopping, we went back at 6 PM. Mom told me to eat rice so I just took 1/4 bowl of rice, tofu soup, few chunks of chicken breast, and lettuce. CALS: 364 cals
To close the day, I made a glass of detox drink which recipe will be shared later. No exercise today because of the examination and girls day out. But I think by walking for about 3 hours straight at the mall could be considered as exercise since we're moving around a lot lol :p

Review ended here. SUMMARY COUNTED CALS: 1089.25 (this is only an estimation)

Keep in faith! WE CAN DO IT! xx -much love-

GUILT-FREE BANANA ICE CREAM RECIPE

"I WANT ICE CREAM BUT I'M ON DIET! I think I'll cheat today..." 

NO! You cannot cheat. There's no cheating day. You have to be strict in order to maintain your weight loss.

"BUT PLEASE I CAN'T HOLD IT ANYMORE..."

Well, I got something for you! You can eat your ice cream without feeling guilty for cheating! This guilt-free banana ice cream will save you from cheating day. Low-cals and I guarantee you that the ice cream is as delicious as the real ice cream (which is so high in cals)!

Good luck! And keep on track! xx -much love-

A Story Written Two Years Ago

I was cleaning my room when I accidentally bumped into the old stack of papers under my desk. And then I found this – a mini diary written two years ago. I couldn’t even hold my tears when I read what I wrote back then. A mindless and naïve girl just wrote anything she thought without even considering what happened behind them.

“He’s sick today. But I still want him to be here. I love him. I don’t know how to show it. It’s just like…every time I want to see him. I’m hurt, but it’s not him who hurts me. He never hurts me. I’m the one who makes everything worse. I want to see him all the time. I don’t know if he feels the way I feel. But at least, I trust him. I trust that he loves me.”

“I can’t imagine if someday he can’t take it anymore and gives up and leaves me. If I said I miss him, I really mean it. If I said sorry, it means I make fault and want him to forgive me. If I said that it’s okay, it means I don’t want to make him worry. I don’t know what to do if he really leaves me someday…”

“Can I survive without him? I told him that I never thought of planning the future. But deep inside, I have planned everything perfectly. Like – we’ll study abroad together and taking the same university, share an apartment, buy groceries together, get tons of couple outfits, build a great house, go to carnival or beach or movie marathon, get the home cinema + very big couch and play video games, and I’ll cook for him every day and he’ll never get bored with the meals… But if someday he suddenly gets tired of me, all things above will be nothing. I can only imagine those things if the guy is him…”

“Every time he says ‘I love you’, I’ll cry because I trust him so much. I don’t want those words to be vanished someday. They said nothing lasts forever but I don’t care. I take this relationship too serious from the first time I said I love him. Maybe he won’t do the same but at least there’s someone who fights for this relationship.”

“To be honest, I feel so jealous when it comes to some kind of girls. Sometimes I just over-think that perhaps he’d choose that girl if he didn’t meet me right now. Like – oh! They both look so damn good together! That’s why I’m scared to death that something precious in my life would be taken away. I trust him but the jealousy can’t be controlled sometimes.”

“I want him in my life. He brings me joy. He’s my boy, part of my world. Maybe he still doesn’t know how much I love him and how much I want him and how much I miss him. I wonder if he read this…”

“One day my friend asked me: ‘What would you do if he suddenly left you?’ – I’ll seek for him or I’ll wait for him. And what if he comes back with a new girlfriend or fiancé or even wife? As long as she’s not his wife, I’ll beat her up. I’ll tell everything to him like ‘I’ve been waiting for you. 30/09 is our date. I love you. If you leave me, I will die. I will jump off the bridge. No, I’m just kidding. But just don’t leave me’ and make him realize that I’m the one. But if she’s his wife, let me be his second wife. Oh yes, it’s a joke (again). Just…can’t you let him go? If she doesn’t want to, I’ll let them live HAPPILY EVER AFTER.”

At first, it would be funny because of the childish things above – like it’s not easy to have a wife leaving her husband. I was just an idiot back then. I didn’t even think what’s happening on his side. We’re only 16 back then. And you know that kind of hormone when you feel everything is normal in that moment but turns worse in seconds. And you’ll be like so dramatic, crying on the couch, playing the role as the broken-hearted woman while the problem actually lies on you. You make yourself drown in your own problem – the problem you created by yourself. So you’ll just be like thinking of it all the time, telling yourself that you’re the worse and he’d leave you and he’d get tired of you. Well, if you’re like that all the time, he’d leave you of course. I’d leave you if I were your boyfriend. So I’ve learned so many things from what have happened in the past. I’m NEWBORN GIRL now!!! Yeah!!! *cheers* I was actually a crybaby last time but now it seems so hard to cry even when I watch Titanic or movies like that. I grow up stronger than before. I hurt – that’s why I am stronger now. I learned from my failure and those things will build me into better person so I’ll be “PERFECT” for my future lover (despite for it’s him or another guy). This is such a dramatic post. You may laugh at me but I learned many things from this. Keep smile and don’t give up! I love you! xx

- SL

FINALLY THEY ADMIT IT

KhunFany (2PM Nichkhun & SNSD Tiffany) dating news shocked all fans of both groups. SM & JYP officially confirmed that the news is true! It is said that these two love birds have been dating for 4 months. They were friends back then and gradually getting close until they decided to date official. However, for the KhunFany hardcore fans, this news would not be a surprise. There are so many rumors found in internet if you type "Khunfany" on the search engine. They are all spread years ago! And we were waiting for these times for it to be real! Finally they admit it! *happy tears*

I know it will be hard for KhunToria hardcore fans but let's learn to accept it since the official statement has been released. KhunToria was sweet but it's only for a show. The show is known to be scripted. Khun only sees Victoria as a partner and vice versa. And it doesn't seem like Victoria would be broken heart because of this news. Heard that she's also dated Kyuhyun/Changmin back then when they're filming WGM. 

Article: Are Victoria and Changmin dating? 

So these are links for the beginning of the rumors about KhunFany:

https://khunfanyisreal.wordpress.com/tag/khunfany/page/4/

http://stepbystephwang.tumblr.com/search/khunfany

http://iamhottestwaves.blogspot.com/2012/08/khunfany-are-they-for-real.html

We could see from the rumors that Nichkhun and Fany have been dating since 2010 when Khun was busy shooting for the reality show "We Got Married" with his partner, Victoria. If they were truly dating in that time, Fany would have hard times because she had to endure her feelings due to the romantic WGM scenes. Another thing is that Fany was reported to be close with Nichkhun's family. Khun's mom was said to occasionally visit them at the hotel.

Most journalists have known about this but they didn't write the story because Khun and Victoria were still on WGM at the moment. You can watch the interview with the journalist here. The journalist admitted that they've been dating for 2 years already! So the rumors are true, aren't they? So, let's pray for our new couple and wish the best for them. KHUNFANY'S SHIPPER FOREVER! - S.L

Dear Future Daughter

Random things just passed by my mind... And I decided to post this thing.

1. When you're at some party, chain smoking on the roof with some strange girl with blue hair and exorbitant large dark eyes. Ask her about her day. I promise you, you won't regret it. Often times you'll find the strangest of people have the most captivating of stories to tell.
2. Please, never mistake desire for love. Love will engulf your soul, whilst desire will emerge as acid, slowly making its way through your veins, gradually burning you from the inside out.
3. No one is going to fucking save you. Anything you've read or heard otherwise is bullshit.
4. One day a boy is going to come along whose touch feels like fire and whose words taste like vanilla. When he leaves you, you will want to die. If you know anything at all, know that it is only temporary
5. Your mental health comes before school, baby. Always. If it's midnight, and you have an exam the next day but your hands have been shaking for the past hour and a half and you're not so sure you want to be alive anymore, go the fuck to bed. So what if you get a bad score on the exam the next day? You took care of yourself and at the end of the day that will always come before a high test score. To hell with anyone who tells you differently.

TITANIUM - DAVID GUETTA ft. SIA

You shout it out

But I can't hear a word you say

I'm talking loud not saying much

I'm criticized

But all your bullets ricochet

Shoot me down, but I get up

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose

Fire away, fire away

Ricochet, you take your aim

Fire away, fire away

[Chorus:]

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

Cut me down

But it's you who'll have further to fall

Ghost town and haunted love

Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones

I'm talking loud not saying much

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose

Fire away, fire away

Ricochet, you take your aim

Fire away, fire away

[Chorus:]

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

I am titanium

I am titanium

Stone-hard, machine gun

Firing at the ones who run

Stone-hard as bulletproof glass

[Chorus:]

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

I am titanium

HE IS NOT AN IDIOT

I have been asked so many times about how could my ex be an idiot and left a beautiful girl like me. I got tired of that question and I won't answer it because that's out of my capacity to do that. The point is I don't want people to assume that loyalty and love are based on beauty and physical appearance. I don't think my ex would fall in love with me that day if he only looked for beauty - because I am just a plain Jane. And I don't think my ex would stick with me that long if he only wanted me for physical appearance - because I am not hot, skinny, or whatever. Guys are easily bored if they only want you for your body. So, I just want my friends and all people out there to stop assuming that it's idiot for a guy to leave a beautiful girl behind. Relationship failed for a reason, guys. We broke up for an exact reason - we both realized that we don't walk in the same path and that this relationship can't be worth fighting for anymore. It's just too complicated for a teenager like us to face this thing, but that's a fact we cannot avoid. He wanted to stick with his principal and I have to understand his will. He is not an idiot because he used to love me just the way I am. CLARIFIED.

ASK BOX ASK BOX 20140122

1. What is your religion or do you not really have one? - Christian
2. Ever had a one night stand? If so, how many and do you regret any of them? - Never
3. Current friend that you have known the longest? - Lisa
4. Name someone you can tell just about anything to? - No one
5. Favorite animal to have as a pet? - Dog
6. How many floors does your home have? - Three
7. How many bedrooms and bathrooms? - Three bedrooms & two bathrooms
8. Do you live in a neighborhood or in the middle of nowhere? - Neighborhood
9. What's your definition of cheating? - Leaving your true love for a night with a hoe
10. Ever cheated on a test? - Yes
11. Do you regret anything? - Yes
12. Name 5 of the most important things in your life? - Family, foods, wifi, oxygen, my phone
13. How many languages can you speak and what are they? - Three. ID, English, Teochew dialect
14. Are you a touchy feely person? - No
15. Do you trust easily? - No
16. Do you have any phobias? - Yes 
17. Are you a heavy or light sleeper? - Light sleeper 
18. Are you a morning person? - Not. at. all.
19. Ever had surgery? If yes, for what reason? - Yes, just a lil injury on my knee 
20. Ever come close to death? - Never
21. Ever broken any bones? - Yes
22. When you die, would you rather be buried or cremated? - Cremated 
23. Have you been told you can sing well more than once? - Yes
24. 3 physical features you get complimented on a lot? - Eyes, hair, cheeks
25. Name your least favorite feature? - Body
26. Name the clothing store you shop at the most? - Berrybenka.com
27. Name a movie or movies you can watch over and over? - Titanic, Narnia
28. Do you have siblings? If so, how many? - Yes, one lil sis.
29. What is/was your worst subject in school? - Chemistry
30. Do you like to dance? - YES
31. Name your 2 favorite colors and why? - Red because it looks so brave and soft pink because it looks girly 
32. Ever had an imaginary friend as a child? - Yes lol
33. Ever been skinny dipping? - Yes
34. Did/Do you enjoy highschool for the most part? - No
35. Who do you live with? - Parents
36. Name your 3 closest friends. Which one is your very best friend? - Lisa, Eria, Tanzalia. Closest one is Lisa.
37. How often do you really "go out"? - Rarely go out
38. Have you ever lost anyone you loved? - Yes
39. Ever been in true love? - Yes
40. On a scale of 1-5 how organized are you? - 3

Survey: Random Questions

1. Have you ever been friends with benefits with someone? - No.
2. Do you want a boyfriend/girlfriend right now? - Sort of. I like being single though.
3. Have you ever been on a bad first date? - Nope.
4. Do you believe that love exists? - Yes.
5. Do you think text s_e_x (where you text someone dirty things) is good? - No. It's retarded.
6. Have you ever had text s_e_x? - Nope.
7. Have you ever gone out with one of your guy/girl friends? - Yes.
8. Is it okay to kiss on the first date? - No, because you don't know the person well enough yet.
9. Are you and your crush friends? - Sort of.
10. If you've ever played spin the bottle or seven minutes in heaven, have you ever had to kiss a nerd? - Nope.
11. How far should you go on the first date? - Just holding hands.
12. Have you ever had a crush on the same person as your friend? - Yes.
13. Do internet relationships work out? - It depends. You really have to work at it.
14. What about long distance relationships? - You would have to really work at it and you would have to see each other a lot but maybe it could work.
15. Is cheating okay if the relationship hasn't been that long? - Not at all.
16. Have you ever cheated on someone before? - Nope
17. If your two best friends (your closest guy friend and your closest girl friend) starting going out, would you feel awkward around them? - If they start making out in front of me, then yes, I would feel awkward. But other than that, no.
18. Are you obsessed with romance? - Yeah, I would say so.
19. What gifts would you like to receive on Valentine's Day? - Jewelry, stuffed animal, card, a box of heart shaped chocolates, flowers.
20. Finally, do you think that if you kissed your closest guy/girl friend, you would fall in love with them? - It would just be awkward, and neither of us would ever bring it up again.

I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO REACT

Six months passed.

And I met him yesterday.

I thought I have moved on.

But turned out I was so wrong.

I forced myself to think that way.

While in fact it wasn't like that at all.

He still lingers at every corner of my heart.

His name still gives me ticklish feeling on my tummy.

Heart beats so fast.

Can't even control myself.

Feel the warmth on my face.

I know it turns red when I hear they say your name.

When you talk to me,

I don't even know how to react.

I act like a fool, a very foolish girl.

Because I'm afraid I'd speak stupid thing that will turn your back away once again.

I really want to know.

Have you ever thought about me like I think about you?

Every day, you are still close to my mind.

Can I have you once again?

My goal is not to wake up at 40, with the revelation that I wasted my life in a job I hate because I was forced to decide on a career in my teens.

COMPLETELY RANDOM QUESTIONS ABOUT LOVE, LIFE, FRIENDS

1. Do you love anyone who's name starts with A? - I used to.
2. When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug? - 5 months ago. 
3. Who is the last person that made you smile? - Someone whose name starts with K ;)
4. Do you lose interest in someone easily? - Yes.
5. Who was the last person you flirted with? - I don't flirt with anyone.
6. Are you dating the last person you kissed? - Not anymore.
7. Has anyone ever asked you if you were bi polar? - No.
8. When is the last time you cried? - Last midnight, when everyone is cheering "HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!"
9. How many people have you given your heart to? - One, so far.
10. Who is the last person that disappointed you? - My ex.
11. What's one thing in your life that you wish you could change? - How I see myself.
12. Do you fall in love easily? - No.
13. Do you still talk to the person you fell the hardest for? - Unfortunately, no.
14. Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to? - No.
15. Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers? - Yes.
16. Are you trying to avoid liking/loving somebody at the moment? - No, love comes whenever we're ready :)
17. Is there someone that you miss right now? - Yes /blushing/
18. Have you ever given your ALL to someone who walked away? - Yes :( 
19. Do you and your last ex hate eachother? - I don't know but I don't feel like hating him ;(
20. Has a friendship ended recently that you wish had not? - Err, yes :(
21. Do you think that people are trustworthy? - No.
22. How many best friends have you had through out you life? - Three, maybe? 
23. Who's the last person that slept over your house? - My uncle and rest of his family.
24. Have you ever regretted kissing someone? - No.
25. Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life? - Yes, I guess. 
26. Has anyone ever made a difference in yours? - Yes but he walked away :(
27. Is someone on your mind right now? - Yes.
28. Are you too forgiving? - I forgive easily but it's kinda difficult for me to forget what they've done to me.
29. Do you want someone you can't have? - No.
30. Is your last ex still someone you care about? - Yes. 
31. How do you feel about your life right now? - It's still beginning of 2014. I still have no idea how I feel about my life.
32. Has someone put their arm around you in the past five days? - No.
33. What'​​​s one thing ​you do when you're mad? - Cry :(
34. Do you tend to fall for players? - No.
35. Do you know anyone who has been arrested? - No.
36. Did the last person you kiss have tattoos? - No.
37. Are you currently sad about anything? - Sad about my weight :(
38. Do you pray to God often? - Each night.
39. How would you feel if your last ex fell in love with someone else? - /silent/ I...never imagine that it'd happen, so... I don't know. I just don't know...
40. Who was the last person who left your life and hurt you? - My ex. 
41. Do you know anyone who died of breast cancer? - No.
42. How long does it take you to get over someone? - 4 months, maybe?
43. Are your parents strict? - Absolutely yes. It's frustrating me!
44. What are you afraid of? - Darkness.
45. Do people often disappoint you? - Yes.
46. Did you wake up in a good mood this morning? - Yes :) Today is a very great day!
47. Are you a good liar? - No.
48. Do you have any mental disorders? - Is frequently talking by myself counted on? 
49. Which one of your friends is the funniest? - Meg.
50. Would you ever forgive your boyfriend/girlfriend for cheating on you? - No.
51. Are you depressed right now? - Er, no?
52. What's the worst thing about your personality? - Two-sided-face.
53. Is there at least one ex boyfriend/girlfriend you can trust? - Yes.
54. Are you picky about who you date? - Yes.
55. Did you like anyone last summer? - Yes.
56. Have you ever liked someone that all your friends hated? - No.
57. Is there anyone that your texting right now? - Yes.
58. Who was the last person that made you upset/angry? - My sister.
59. Do you honestly like the person you are? - Not really.
60. Have you done many bad things in life? - Kinda.
61. Have you ever been arrested? - No, haha.
62. Who's your best friend right now? - I don't know. I best friend myself. LOL
63. Have your parents ever said they were disappointed in you? - Yes.
64. Is there a key to your heart? - Yes. I just thrown it away to a tank full of piranha. Good luck ;)
65. Has anyone ever stabbed you in the back? - No.
66. Have you ever been called a slut? - Yes.
67. What's the most important thing in a relationship? - Commitment.
68. Would you date someone 8 years older than you? - Yes. Older is better.
69. Have you ever broken someone's heart? - Haha, yes.
70. Have you ever kissed someone that was the same sex as you? - Accidentally, yes.
71. What's worrying you right now? - MONEY MONEY MONEY
72. Do you believe in God? - Yes.
73. Does it bother you if someone doesn't like you? - Yes.
74. Would you ever take someone back after they've cheated? - No. 
75. Do you miss any of your old friends? - Yes.
76. Have you ever been used before? - I think so...
77. Where is the person you gave your heart to for the first time? - He's currently staying in different city.
78. Do you believe that there's good in everybody? - Yes.
79. Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of the year? - This is literally the beginning of the year, so...yes. :D
80. Is there someone you will never forget? - Yes. 
81. Has anyone ever written a song for you? - No, I hope someday I will get one. :)
82. Does it annoy you when people play dumb? - Yes.
83. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be? - I won't tell ;)
84. Are you confused about anything? - My feeling.
85. Do you think anyone has feelings for you? - Yes.
86. Are you a jealous person? - Yes.
87. Do you think you could you handle being in the military? - No.
88. Would you ever quit a bad habit for someone? - Yes.
89. When was the last time you gave your number to someone? - I forget.
90. Have you thought about an ex today? - Yes.
91. Who was the last person to compliment you? - Someone whose name starts with K :) 
92. Are you a social butterfly or a loner? - I used to be a social butterfly but then lately I've been through a lot and choose to be alone.
93. Has anyone said they love you in the last week? - Someone confessed to me last week. 
94. Do you ever think about stuff and start crying? - Yes.
95. Are you keeping a big secret right now? - Yes, everyone has secret.
96. Have you ever walked on the beach at night? - No, but I really want to. Lying under clear skies, counting stars,knowing how small you are in the universe, and of course with someone special beside you.
97. Have you noticed that it's mostly girls who post bulletin surveys? - Yes.
98. When was the last time you felt alone? - Last midnight.
99. Do you want to be famous someday? - Yes!
100. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? - Yes.
101. Are you good at hiding your feelings? - Not really.
102. Are there currently any stressful situations in your life? - No.
103. Who is the last person that said you were sexy? - My ex.
104. Did you kiss anyone tonight? - No.
105. Who was the last person you cried in front of? - Mom. 
106. At what age would you most like to get married? - 28.
107. How often do you type ''<3'? - So often, especially when it comes to KPOP things. LOL :p
108. What if your ex found out you fell in love with another person? - Ask him.
109. When was the last time your mom yelled at you? - Two days ago.
110. Do you trust all your friends? - No.
111. Do you believe your latest ex thinks about you? - No.
112. Would you fall apart if that last person you kissed walked out of your life? - He walked out of my life already, and I think I could still survive without him.
113. Do you laugh a lot? - Yes.
114. Anyone say they want to be with you forever? - Yes, and ironically it's my ex.
115. Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart? - Maybe, yes.
116. Do you want your ex to be happy, even if it means not being with you? - No. I'm selfish.
117. Is there a member of the opposite sex on your mind? - Yes.
118. Do you know anyone who would just drop everything to come see you? - No.
119. When's the last time you were surprised? - Last night when one of my schoolmate sent me voice note on BBM, saying happy new year and told me how beautiful I am and wished me a very great year. She's such a sweetie!
120. If an ex said they hated you, what would you say? - Thanks, but I love you.
121. When was the last time you were drunk? - 2010's New Year.
122. Ever taken a picture kissing someone? - No.
123. Are you giving up on anyone/ anything? - No.
124. Is there anyone you wouldn't mind punching at the moment? - Yes.
125. Could you ever be friends with the person who hurt you most in life? - I think yes, I'm very tolerant.  
126. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? - Yes.
127. What's something new you recently learned about yourself? - Finally my face can grows acne! F*! It's all over my forehead!
128. Do your feelings get hurt easily? - Yes.
129. If you see a girl with big boobs, do you automatically think shes a slut? - No, rather than slut I think she's a goddess. 
130. Why did you last cry? - I don't even know why.
131. Would you want to know the date of your death? - No. 
132. Have you ever suspected anyone of cheating on you? - No.
133. Would you prefer a baby girl or boy? - Baby boy.
134. Are you feeling guilty about anything right now? - No.
135. Are you anyone's first love? - No.
136. Would you care if your best friend cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend? - Yes.
137. Whats the last thing you lied about? - Don't even remember.
138. How old were you when you had your first relationship? - 13.
139. What was on your mind mostly today? - Lyrics.
140. Are you in love with anyone at the moment? - No.
141. Have you ever been heartbroken? - Yes.
142. Who is the last person you texted? - Someone whose name starts with K.
143. Who do you trust with your life? - Jesus Christ.
144. Are you very family oriented? - Not really.
145. Are you afraid of falling in love? - No.
146. Isn't it annoying when an ex doesn't leave you alone? - I think no. Find it kind of amazing to know that someone out there is fighting for us. 
147. Who's the last person you told I love you to? - A sweet Korean virtual friend on Twitter.
148. Do you believe that it's best to have a friendship first and then love? - Yes.
149. Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person? - Yes.
150. Are you happy with your life right now? - I think yes.