ASK BOX ASK BOX 20140122

1. What is your religion or do you not really have one? - Christian
2. Ever had a one night stand? If so, how many and do you regret any of them? - Never
3. Current friend that you have known the longest? - Lisa
4. Name someone you can tell just about anything to? - No one
5. Favorite animal to have as a pet? - Dog
6. How many floors does your home have? - Three
7. How many bedrooms and bathrooms? - Three bedrooms & two bathrooms
8. Do you live in a neighborhood or in the middle of nowhere? - Neighborhood
9. What's your definition of cheating? - Leaving your true love for a night with a hoe
10. Ever cheated on a test? - Yes
11. Do you regret anything? - Yes
12. Name 5 of the most important things in your life? - Family, foods, wifi, oxygen, my phone
13. How many languages can you speak and what are they? - Three. ID, English, Teochew dialect
14. Are you a touchy feely person? - No
15. Do you trust easily? - No
16. Do you have any phobias? - Yes 
17. Are you a heavy or light sleeper? - Light sleeper 
18. Are you a morning person? - Not. at. all.
19. Ever had surgery? If yes, for what reason? - Yes, just a lil injury on my knee 
20. Ever come close to death? - Never
21. Ever broken any bones? - Yes
22. When you die, would you rather be buried or cremated? - Cremated 
23. Have you been told you can sing well more than once? - Yes
24. 3 physical features you get complimented on a lot? - Eyes, hair, cheeks
25. Name your least favorite feature? - Body
26. Name the clothing store you shop at the most? - Berrybenka.com
27. Name a movie or movies you can watch over and over? - Titanic, Narnia
28. Do you have siblings? If so, how many? - Yes, one lil sis.
29. What is/was your worst subject in school? - Chemistry
30. Do you like to dance? - YES
31. Name your 2 favorite colors and why? - Red because it looks so brave and soft pink because it looks girly 
32. Ever had an imaginary friend as a child? - Yes lol
33. Ever been skinny dipping? - Yes
34. Did/Do you enjoy highschool for the most part? - No
35. Who do you live with? - Parents
36. Name your 3 closest friends. Which one is your very best friend? - Lisa, Eria, Tanzalia. Closest one is Lisa.
37. How often do you really "go out"? - Rarely go out
38. Have you ever lost anyone you loved? - Yes
39. Ever been in true love? - Yes
40. On a scale of 1-5 how organized are you? - 3

Survey: Random Questions

1. Have you ever been friends with benefits with someone? - No.
2. Do you want a boyfriend/girlfriend right now? - Sort of. I like being single though.
3. Have you ever been on a bad first date? - Nope.
4. Do you believe that love exists? - Yes.
5. Do you think text s_e_x (where you text someone dirty things) is good? - No. It's retarded.
6. Have you ever had text s_e_x? - Nope.
7. Have you ever gone out with one of your guy/girl friends? - Yes.
8. Is it okay to kiss on the first date? - No, because you don't know the person well enough yet.
9. Are you and your crush friends? - Sort of.
10. If you've ever played spin the bottle or seven minutes in heaven, have you ever had to kiss a nerd? - Nope.
11. How far should you go on the first date? - Just holding hands.
12. Have you ever had a crush on the same person as your friend? - Yes.
13. Do internet relationships work out? - It depends. You really have to work at it.
14. What about long distance relationships? - You would have to really work at it and you would have to see each other a lot but maybe it could work.
15. Is cheating okay if the relationship hasn't been that long? - Not at all.
16. Have you ever cheated on someone before? - Nope
17. If your two best friends (your closest guy friend and your closest girl friend) starting going out, would you feel awkward around them? - If they start making out in front of me, then yes, I would feel awkward. But other than that, no.
18. Are you obsessed with romance? - Yeah, I would say so.
19. What gifts would you like to receive on Valentine's Day? - Jewelry, stuffed animal, card, a box of heart shaped chocolates, flowers.
20. Finally, do you think that if you kissed your closest guy/girl friend, you would fall in love with them? - It would just be awkward, and neither of us would ever bring it up again.

COMPLETELY RANDOM QUESTIONS ABOUT LOVE, LIFE, FRIENDS

1. Do you love anyone who's name starts with A? - I used to.
2. When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug? - 5 months ago. 
3. Who is the last person that made you smile? - Someone whose name starts with K ;)
4. Do you lose interest in someone easily? - Yes.
5. Who was the last person you flirted with? - I don't flirt with anyone.
6. Are you dating the last person you kissed? - Not anymore.
7. Has anyone ever asked you if you were bi polar? - No.
8. When is the last time you cried? - Last midnight, when everyone is cheering "HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!"
9. How many people have you given your heart to? - One, so far.
10. Who is the last person that disappointed you? - My ex.
11. What's one thing in your life that you wish you could change? - How I see myself.
12. Do you fall in love easily? - No.
13. Do you still talk to the person you fell the hardest for? - Unfortunately, no.
14. Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to? - No.
15. Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers? - Yes.
16. Are you trying to avoid liking/loving somebody at the moment? - No, love comes whenever we're ready :)
17. Is there someone that you miss right now? - Yes /blushing/
18. Have you ever given your ALL to someone who walked away? - Yes :( 
19. Do you and your last ex hate eachother? - I don't know but I don't feel like hating him ;(
20. Has a friendship ended recently that you wish had not? - Err, yes :(
21. Do you think that people are trustworthy? - No.
22. How many best friends have you had through out you life? - Three, maybe? 
23. Who's the last person that slept over your house? - My uncle and rest of his family.
24. Have you ever regretted kissing someone? - No.
25. Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life? - Yes, I guess. 
26. Has anyone ever made a difference in yours? - Yes but he walked away :(
27. Is someone on your mind right now? - Yes.
28. Are you too forgiving? - I forgive easily but it's kinda difficult for me to forget what they've done to me.
29. Do you want someone you can't have? - No.
30. Is your last ex still someone you care about? - Yes. 
31. How do you feel about your life right now? - It's still beginning of 2014. I still have no idea how I feel about my life.
32. Has someone put their arm around you in the past five days? - No.
33. What'​​​s one thing ​you do when you're mad? - Cry :(
34. Do you tend to fall for players? - No.
35. Do you know anyone who has been arrested? - No.
36. Did the last person you kiss have tattoos? - No.
37. Are you currently sad about anything? - Sad about my weight :(
38. Do you pray to God often? - Each night.
39. How would you feel if your last ex fell in love with someone else? - /silent/ I...never imagine that it'd happen, so... I don't know. I just don't know...
40. Who was the last person who left your life and hurt you? - My ex. 
41. Do you know anyone who died of breast cancer? - No.
42. How long does it take you to get over someone? - 4 months, maybe?
43. Are your parents strict? - Absolutely yes. It's frustrating me!
44. What are you afraid of? - Darkness.
45. Do people often disappoint you? - Yes.
46. Did you wake up in a good mood this morning? - Yes :) Today is a very great day!
47. Are you a good liar? - No.
48. Do you have any mental disorders? - Is frequently talking by myself counted on? 
49. Which one of your friends is the funniest? - Meg.
50. Would you ever forgive your boyfriend/girlfriend for cheating on you? - No.
51. Are you depressed right now? - Er, no?
52. What's the worst thing about your personality? - Two-sided-face.
53. Is there at least one ex boyfriend/girlfriend you can trust? - Yes.
54. Are you picky about who you date? - Yes.
55. Did you like anyone last summer? - Yes.
56. Have you ever liked someone that all your friends hated? - No.
57. Is there anyone that your texting right now? - Yes.
58. Who was the last person that made you upset/angry? - My sister.
59. Do you honestly like the person you are? - Not really.
60. Have you done many bad things in life? - Kinda.
61. Have you ever been arrested? - No, haha.
62. Who's your best friend right now? - I don't know. I best friend myself. LOL
63. Have your parents ever said they were disappointed in you? - Yes.
64. Is there a key to your heart? - Yes. I just thrown it away to a tank full of piranha. Good luck ;)
65. Has anyone ever stabbed you in the back? - No.
66. Have you ever been called a slut? - Yes.
67. What's the most important thing in a relationship? - Commitment.
68. Would you date someone 8 years older than you? - Yes. Older is better.
69. Have you ever broken someone's heart? - Haha, yes.
70. Have you ever kissed someone that was the same sex as you? - Accidentally, yes.
71. What's worrying you right now? - MONEY MONEY MONEY
72. Do you believe in God? - Yes.
73. Does it bother you if someone doesn't like you? - Yes.
74. Would you ever take someone back after they've cheated? - No. 
75. Do you miss any of your old friends? - Yes.
76. Have you ever been used before? - I think so...
77. Where is the person you gave your heart to for the first time? - He's currently staying in different city.
78. Do you believe that there's good in everybody? - Yes.
79. Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of the year? - This is literally the beginning of the year, so...yes. :D
80. Is there someone you will never forget? - Yes. 
81. Has anyone ever written a song for you? - No, I hope someday I will get one. :)
82. Does it annoy you when people play dumb? - Yes.
83. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be? - I won't tell ;)
84. Are you confused about anything? - My feeling.
85. Do you think anyone has feelings for you? - Yes.
86. Are you a jealous person? - Yes.
87. Do you think you could you handle being in the military? - No.
88. Would you ever quit a bad habit for someone? - Yes.
89. When was the last time you gave your number to someone? - I forget.
90. Have you thought about an ex today? - Yes.
91. Who was the last person to compliment you? - Someone whose name starts with K :) 
92. Are you a social butterfly or a loner? - I used to be a social butterfly but then lately I've been through a lot and choose to be alone.
93. Has anyone said they love you in the last week? - Someone confessed to me last week. 
94. Do you ever think about stuff and start crying? - Yes.
95. Are you keeping a big secret right now? - Yes, everyone has secret.
96. Have you ever walked on the beach at night? - No, but I really want to. Lying under clear skies, counting stars,knowing how small you are in the universe, and of course with someone special beside you.
97. Have you noticed that it's mostly girls who post bulletin surveys? - Yes.
98. When was the last time you felt alone? - Last midnight.
99. Do you want to be famous someday? - Yes!
100. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? - Yes.
101. Are you good at hiding your feelings? - Not really.
102. Are there currently any stressful situations in your life? - No.
103. Who is the last person that said you were sexy? - My ex.
104. Did you kiss anyone tonight? - No.
105. Who was the last person you cried in front of? - Mom. 
106. At what age would you most like to get married? - 28.
107. How often do you type ''<3'? - So often, especially when it comes to KPOP things. LOL :p
108. What if your ex found out you fell in love with another person? - Ask him.
109. When was the last time your mom yelled at you? - Two days ago.
110. Do you trust all your friends? - No.
111. Do you believe your latest ex thinks about you? - No.
112. Would you fall apart if that last person you kissed walked out of your life? - He walked out of my life already, and I think I could still survive without him.
113. Do you laugh a lot? - Yes.
114. Anyone say they want to be with you forever? - Yes, and ironically it's my ex.
115. Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart? - Maybe, yes.
116. Do you want your ex to be happy, even if it means not being with you? - No. I'm selfish.
117. Is there a member of the opposite sex on your mind? - Yes.
118. Do you know anyone who would just drop everything to come see you? - No.
119. When's the last time you were surprised? - Last night when one of my schoolmate sent me voice note on BBM, saying happy new year and told me how beautiful I am and wished me a very great year. She's such a sweetie!
120. If an ex said they hated you, what would you say? - Thanks, but I love you.
121. When was the last time you were drunk? - 2010's New Year.
122. Ever taken a picture kissing someone? - No.
123. Are you giving up on anyone/ anything? - No.
124. Is there anyone you wouldn't mind punching at the moment? - Yes.
125. Could you ever be friends with the person who hurt you most in life? - I think yes, I'm very tolerant.  
126. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? - Yes.
127. What's something new you recently learned about yourself? - Finally my face can grows acne! F*! It's all over my forehead!
128. Do your feelings get hurt easily? - Yes.
129. If you see a girl with big boobs, do you automatically think shes a slut? - No, rather than slut I think she's a goddess. 
130. Why did you last cry? - I don't even know why.
131. Would you want to know the date of your death? - No. 
132. Have you ever suspected anyone of cheating on you? - No.
133. Would you prefer a baby girl or boy? - Baby boy.
134. Are you feeling guilty about anything right now? - No.
135. Are you anyone's first love? - No.
136. Would you care if your best friend cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend? - Yes.
137. Whats the last thing you lied about? - Don't even remember.
138. How old were you when you had your first relationship? - 13.
139. What was on your mind mostly today? - Lyrics.
140. Are you in love with anyone at the moment? - No.
141. Have you ever been heartbroken? - Yes.
142. Who is the last person you texted? - Someone whose name starts with K.
143. Who do you trust with your life? - Jesus Christ.
144. Are you very family oriented? - Not really.
145. Are you afraid of falling in love? - No.
146. Isn't it annoying when an ex doesn't leave you alone? - I think no. Find it kind of amazing to know that someone out there is fighting for us. 
147. Who's the last person you told I love you to? - A sweet Korean virtual friend on Twitter.
148. Do you believe that it's best to have a friendship first and then love? - Yes.
149. Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person? - Yes.
150. Are you happy with your life right now? - I think yes.

GET TO KNOW ME "25 RANDOM QUESTIONS"

1. Do you have any pets? - Yes. It's a campbell hamster and we named it after The Hobbit's main character, Bilbo.

2. Name 3 things that are physically close to you. - Computer, Cellphone, Music sheet.

3. What's the weather like right now? - It's cold.

4. Do you drive? If so, have you crashed? - I rarely drive and no, I have never crashed.

5. What time did you wake up this morning? - Nine.

6. When was the last time you showered? - 4 hours ago.

7. What was the last movie you saw? - "The Golden Compass"

8. What does your last text message say? - A guy who said that he misses me.

9. What's your ringtone? - Just a classic phone ringtone.

10. Have you ever been to a different country? - Yes. I used to live in Malaysia for two months.

11. Do you like sushi? - DAMN YES!!!

12. Where do you buy your groceries? - Local market.

13. Have you ever taken medication to help you fall asleep faster? - No.

14. How many siblings do you have? - One little sister.

15. Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop? - I have both.

16. How old will you be turning on your next birthday? - Eighteen. I'm getting old...

17. Do you wear contacts or glasses? - Wear both.

18. Do you color your hair?  - No.

19. Tell me something you're planning to do today. - Eat, sleep, eat, sleep.

20. When was the last time you cried? - When I was fighting with my bestie, I guess...

21. What is your perfect pizza topping? - Cheese and tuna.

22. Which do you prefer, hamburgers or cheeseburgers? - Hamburgers.

23. Have you ever had an all-nighter? - Yes.

24. What is your eye color? - Dark brown.

25. Can you taste the difference between Pepsi and Coke? - I don't drink soda.

MY THOUGHT ON BEAUTY PAGEANT

So, there's this contest in my city called "Gege Meimei" (哥哥妹妹). It's kind of beauty pageant but there will be a pair of winner in this contest. There will be one guy (哥哥) and one girl (妹妹). I don't know how to address this contest so I just call it beauty pageant because "brain, beauty, behavior" is judged here. "Gege Meimei" (哥哥妹妹) is a community here at my region which aims to introduce Tionghua culture. I just voted for some candidates and most of them look great.

Yesterday, my friend asked me why I didn't join this contest. It didn't take so long for me to answer, "I'm not ready yet." YES, I'm not ready at all for this kind of contest. People keep saying that if you keep waiting, you'll never be ready. But I'm quite sure that I will be ready, someday. I have some thoughts on this contest, where "brain, beauty, behavior" is judged here.

First, I need to have extensive knowledge, not only in general, but in specific way, especially about my own region, West Borneo. I need to understand my own culture and have the ability to introduce it to public. It's not that easy to persuade people to put interest on our culture. If we're bad in presenting our culture, it will end up promiscuous and people won't even look at our culture. That's why I have a little worries on it.

Second, I have to look good, physically good. Beauty plays big role in this kind of contest. When you're presenting something, people will look at your presentable physical appearance first, before getting into what you will talking about. I believe that every girl is beautiful, with or without makeup. However, I feel not really confident being compared with other girls. You may see me beautiful, but honestly I don't feel beautiful enough. I'm a perfectionist. People judge me based on this trait. "Nobody's perfect." YES I KNOW. But at least I will try my best to cover what I lack of. Until now, I still can't find way to hide it. My height is 5'18" which is considered normal for my age, but I'm not really confident with fats all over my body. I mean, my thigh touches each other, and I don't have flat stomach, and yeah, I'm 59 kilograms, almost 60! I'm very desperate with this number, although some of my friends try to cheer me up by saying "it's only a number, dear!" but. it's. almost. sixty! Who the hell wants to see a 60 kilograms girl walking on stage? Well, society sucks now, but we can't blame them. Everyone loves to see beautiful tall skinny lady. That's why I have a big worries on it.

And the third, behavior. I don't really have much worries on this. Because I think I behave well all over my life. I respect elders. I almost always be there for everyone. I'm not trying to gain attention - or I'm not an attention seeker. But sometimes I just feel lonely and I don't speak up my problems. I'm just afraid it will disturb my daily activity in that community. I mean, not everyone is going to like you. I'm the person who is easily disturbed by someone who doesn't like me. Because I have the thought of making people to like me. When I know someone is hating me and spreading hatred or bad gossips about me, it will upset me and I will be like "Okay, I'm going to sit here and think of it" I know, I know, it's not a positive way to respond on this case. And yeah, I will just keep them by myself and it will explode someday in my life. So I'm afraid to make everyone upsets with this situation.

I want to work on those three things before I walk to the stage. I want to be the person who makes my rivals doubt their own self-qualities. I don't want to be on stage while I'm not ready. It will just make me ashamed to walk on the stage with no quality. I think the candidates for this contest have already passed the standard. And everyone seems good-looking, smart, and kind. So, I just wish a very good luck for the candidates and whoever win in the end, I hope you can work on your part well.

50 LITTLE THINGS

1.How many pets do you own? Two.

2. What’s your least favorite season? Wet. 

3. Do you prefer to text or call? Call.

4. Morning or night? Night.

5. Do you like tacos? Yes.

6. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? Perhaps both.

7. What’s your favorite desert? Banana split.

8. Do you enjoy walks? No.

9. Are you a frequent user of Facebook? Yes.

10. Do you watch animated shows still? Yes.

11. Can you roll your tongue? Yes.

12. What’s your “lucky” number? 8

13. Are you scared of anything? Darkness.

14. Big mac or big whopper? Big mac.

15. Do you like to play board games? No.

16. Are you fond of romantic novels? Yes.

17. Fruitloops or cocopops? Cocopops.

18. Would you eat a live spider for one million dollars? No.

19. Are you a heavy drinker? No.

20. Would you forgive someone for cheating? No.

21. Are you superstitious? No.

22. Have you seen A Clockwork Orange? Nope.

23. Do you like to read? Yes.

24. Are you easily distressed? Yes.

25. Do you believe in aliens? Err, no.

26. If you were the last person alive besides one other person you get to chose, who would it be? My boyfriend.

27. Dogs or cats? Dogs.

28. Are you a grumpy person? Kinda.

29. What’s something you hate? Lizard.

30. Are you a worry wart? Yes.

31. Do you like having your picture taken? Yes.

32. Do you like cotton candy? Kinda.

33. Would you ever use a dating site? No.

34. Do you believe in ghosts? Kinda.

35. Rap or pop? Pop.

36. What’s the weirdest flavor of ice cream you’ve tried? Never tried the weird ones.

37. Do you like math? NOT AT ALL.

38. Are you the type of person to laugh at others misfortune? Err, kinda.

39. Love or lust? Can I choose both..

40. Do you remember lyrics easily? Yes.

41. What was/is your favorite school subject? English.

42: Do you like tattoos? Yes.

43. Are you the type of person to lie? Nope.

44. Do you eat porridge for breakfast? No, I hate it.

45. What music are you listening to right now? ---

46. Are you allergic to anything? Yes, seafood.

47. Do you like Lady Gaga? YES!

48. What about Nick Minaj? Err, no.

49. Do you like rainy days? No.

50. Last question, do you like pie? Yes.

50 questions, 50 ways to get to know me. ANONS.

1: What would you name your future daughter? -Catherine

2: Do you miss anyone? -Yes

3: What if I told you that you were pretty? -Thank you

4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? -Yes

5: What are you looking forward to in the next week? -Weekend

6: Did you go out or stay in last night? -Stay in

7: How late did you stay up last night? -9.30

8: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? -Yes

9: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? -It's still 9

10: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? -Never

11: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? -Yes

12: Have you pretended to like someone? -No

13: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? -Yes

14: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? -Yes

15: Is it hard for you to get over someone? -Yes

16: Think back five months ago, were you single? -No

17: Have you ever cried from being so mad? -Yes

18: Hold hands with anyone this week? -Yes

19: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? -No

20: Who did you last see in person? -My dad

21: What is the last thing you said out lot? -No way!

22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night? -No

23: Have you ever been to Paris? -No

24: Are you good at hiding your feelings? -Kinda

25: Do you use chap stick? -Yes

26: Who did you last share a bed with? -My sister

27: Are you listening to music right now? -No

28: What is something you currently want right now? -Samsung Galaxy S3

29: Were your last three kisses from the same person? -Yes

30: How is your heart lately? -Jumpy

31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? -Not really

32: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? -Yesterday

33: What do people call you? -Fat

34: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? -Yes

35: Are there any stressful situations in your life? -Definitely yes

36: What are you listening to right now? -Nothing

37: What is wrong with you right now? -Nothing

38: Love really is a beautiful thing huh? -Yes

39: Do you make wishes at 11:11? -No

40: What is on your wrists right now? -Nothing

41: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused/waiting for the unexpected? -Taken

42: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? -Store

43: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? -Never

44: Have you hugged someone within the last week? -Yes

45: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? -Yes

46: What were you doing at midnight last night? -Sleeping

47: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? -No

48: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? -Sleep with someone else

49: Have you ever been to New York? -No

50: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? -I hope so