WEEK 3 DAY 4 FOOD & EXERCISE JOURNAL

I woke up at 7 this morning because of the 'Body Language' class at the gym. Slept for about 7 hours which is not healthy because I have to sleep 8 hours (not less not more). I drank up my weight loss detox liquid (which I've shared in another post) and had a bowl of oatmeal. I put in 250ml of low-fat milk into it. COUNTED CALS: 234 cals
I hit the gym at 8.30 and decided to do cardios instead of 'Body Language' because it's too crowded and my friend didn't want to do it. So we just doubled the cardios and did sit-ups, crunch, and plank. After that, we went to sauna for 10 mins. I forgot to count the cals I burned this morning :(
We went home at 12.30. I took a Fitbar I bought yesterday and ate it as post workout snack. One serving of Fitbar contains 110 cals. I had 1/2 bowl of white rice for lunch with luncheon meat and bitter gourd. Since my muscles needed to be repaired so eating protein was essential. COUNTED CALS: 352 cals
I made a energizing melon smoothie (the recipe will be shared soon) for my mid-day snack. Cals per serving: 197.28 cals
DINNER TIME! YEAY! I didn't need to be so strict here since my body would also burn fat when I sleep later (that's why we got our abdomen flat in the next morning). So I had the same meal with lunch but without bitter gourd. I substituted my veggies need with spicy nori (seaweed sheet). COUNTED CALS: 193 cals
I ended up my day with 1 set of crunch (1 set = 15 times) and running up down through the stairs for 4 times. I just had my weight loss detox liquid for the night.

Review ended here. SUMMARY COUNTED CALS: 1086.28 (this is only an estimation)

Keep in faith! WE CAN DO IT! xx -much love-

WEIGHT LOSS DETOX LIQUID

This weight loss detox liquid will help you in weight loss. Drink it after you wake up and before you sleep (in empty stomach).

Recipe:

- 2/3 cup of boiling water

- 1 tsp of honey

- 1/2 tsp of cinnamon powder

- 1/2 lemon juice

It tastes weird actually but let's drink it and be HEALTHY! ;)

WEEK 3 DAY 3 FOOD & EXERCISE JOURNAL

I decided to log in foods I ate and exercise I did today to get a review in the end of my day. Since I was out of fruits this morning, so I went to school for breakfast. (I should have eaten oatmeal & banana) I bought a piece of bread with so many cheddar cheese in it. I didn't regret buying it because I got an empty stomach and...A BIG TEST in front of me! Breakfast was so necessary this morning! (Well it's necessary all the time, I guess) CALS: 246 cals
9.30 AM: My stomach was growling like a hungry wolf so I decided to buy something to eat. RICE everywhere! (Since I live in Indonesia, rice cannot be set apart from us). So I just bought a lunchbox and ate half of the rice. I finished the tempe and veggie stir-fry and also the fried chicken which I regretted SO SO MUCH! CALS: 479.25 cals
I went back from school at 1 PM and prepared myself to meet my girls at local mall. I got a bowl of bean curd without any toppings or sugar added for my mid-day meal. After a very long walk and never-ended(?) shopping, we went back at 6 PM. Mom told me to eat rice so I just took 1/4 bowl of rice, tofu soup, few chunks of chicken breast, and lettuce. CALS: 364 cals
To close the day, I made a glass of detox drink which recipe will be shared later. No exercise today because of the examination and girls day out. But I think by walking for about 3 hours straight at the mall could be considered as exercise since we're moving around a lot lol :p

Review ended here. SUMMARY COUNTED CALS: 1089.25 (this is only an estimation)

Keep in faith! WE CAN DO IT! xx -much love-

GUILT-FREE BANANA ICE CREAM RECIPE

"I WANT ICE CREAM BUT I'M ON DIET! I think I'll cheat today..." 

NO! You cannot cheat. There's no cheating day. You have to be strict in order to maintain your weight loss.

"BUT PLEASE I CAN'T HOLD IT ANYMORE..."

Well, I got something for you! You can eat your ice cream without feeling guilty for cheating! This guilt-free banana ice cream will save you from cheating day. Low-cals and I guarantee you that the ice cream is as delicious as the real ice cream (which is so high in cals)!

Good luck! And keep on track! xx -much love-

A Story Written Two Years Ago

I was cleaning my room when I accidentally bumped into the old stack of papers under my desk. And then I found this – a mini diary written two years ago. I couldn’t even hold my tears when I read what I wrote back then. A mindless and naïve girl just wrote anything she thought without even considering what happened behind them.

“He’s sick today. But I still want him to be here. I love him. I don’t know how to show it. It’s just like…every time I want to see him. I’m hurt, but it’s not him who hurts me. He never hurts me. I’m the one who makes everything worse. I want to see him all the time. I don’t know if he feels the way I feel. But at least, I trust him. I trust that he loves me.”

“I can’t imagine if someday he can’t take it anymore and gives up and leaves me. If I said I miss him, I really mean it. If I said sorry, it means I make fault and want him to forgive me. If I said that it’s okay, it means I don’t want to make him worry. I don’t know what to do if he really leaves me someday…”

“Can I survive without him? I told him that I never thought of planning the future. But deep inside, I have planned everything perfectly. Like – we’ll study abroad together and taking the same university, share an apartment, buy groceries together, get tons of couple outfits, build a great house, go to carnival or beach or movie marathon, get the home cinema + very big couch and play video games, and I’ll cook for him every day and he’ll never get bored with the meals… But if someday he suddenly gets tired of me, all things above will be nothing. I can only imagine those things if the guy is him…”

“Every time he says ‘I love you’, I’ll cry because I trust him so much. I don’t want those words to be vanished someday. They said nothing lasts forever but I don’t care. I take this relationship too serious from the first time I said I love him. Maybe he won’t do the same but at least there’s someone who fights for this relationship.”

“To be honest, I feel so jealous when it comes to some kind of girls. Sometimes I just over-think that perhaps he’d choose that girl if he didn’t meet me right now. Like – oh! They both look so damn good together! That’s why I’m scared to death that something precious in my life would be taken away. I trust him but the jealousy can’t be controlled sometimes.”

“I want him in my life. He brings me joy. He’s my boy, part of my world. Maybe he still doesn’t know how much I love him and how much I want him and how much I miss him. I wonder if he read this…”

“One day my friend asked me: ‘What would you do if he suddenly left you?’ – I’ll seek for him or I’ll wait for him. And what if he comes back with a new girlfriend or fiancé or even wife? As long as she’s not his wife, I’ll beat her up. I’ll tell everything to him like ‘I’ve been waiting for you. 30/09 is our date. I love you. If you leave me, I will die. I will jump off the bridge. No, I’m just kidding. But just don’t leave me’ and make him realize that I’m the one. But if she’s his wife, let me be his second wife. Oh yes, it’s a joke (again). Just…can’t you let him go? If she doesn’t want to, I’ll let them live HAPPILY EVER AFTER.”

At first, it would be funny because of the childish things above – like it’s not easy to have a wife leaving her husband. I was just an idiot back then. I didn’t even think what’s happening on his side. We’re only 16 back then. And you know that kind of hormone when you feel everything is normal in that moment but turns worse in seconds. And you’ll be like so dramatic, crying on the couch, playing the role as the broken-hearted woman while the problem actually lies on you. You make yourself drown in your own problem – the problem you created by yourself. So you’ll just be like thinking of it all the time, telling yourself that you’re the worse and he’d leave you and he’d get tired of you. Well, if you’re like that all the time, he’d leave you of course. I’d leave you if I were your boyfriend. So I’ve learned so many things from what have happened in the past. I’m NEWBORN GIRL now!!! Yeah!!! *cheers* I was actually a crybaby last time but now it seems so hard to cry even when I watch Titanic or movies like that. I grow up stronger than before. I hurt – that’s why I am stronger now. I learned from my failure and those things will build me into better person so I’ll be “PERFECT” for my future lover (despite for it’s him or another guy). This is such a dramatic post. You may laugh at me but I learned many things from this. Keep smile and don’t give up! I love you! xx

- SL

FINALLY THEY ADMIT IT

KhunFany (2PM Nichkhun & SNSD Tiffany) dating news shocked all fans of both groups. SM & JYP officially confirmed that the news is true! It is said that these two love birds have been dating for 4 months. They were friends back then and gradually getting close until they decided to date official. However, for the KhunFany hardcore fans, this news would not be a surprise. There are so many rumors found in internet if you type "Khunfany" on the search engine. They are all spread years ago! And we were waiting for these times for it to be real! Finally they admit it! *happy tears*

I know it will be hard for KhunToria hardcore fans but let's learn to accept it since the official statement has been released. KhunToria was sweet but it's only for a show. The show is known to be scripted. Khun only sees Victoria as a partner and vice versa. And it doesn't seem like Victoria would be broken heart because of this news. Heard that she's also dated Kyuhyun/Changmin back then when they're filming WGM. 

Article: Are Victoria and Changmin dating? 

So these are links for the beginning of the rumors about KhunFany:

https://khunfanyisreal.wordpress.com/tag/khunfany/page/4/

http://stepbystephwang.tumblr.com/search/khunfany

http://iamhottestwaves.blogspot.com/2012/08/khunfany-are-they-for-real.html

We could see from the rumors that Nichkhun and Fany have been dating since 2010 when Khun was busy shooting for the reality show "We Got Married" with his partner, Victoria. If they were truly dating in that time, Fany would have hard times because she had to endure her feelings due to the romantic WGM scenes. Another thing is that Fany was reported to be close with Nichkhun's family. Khun's mom was said to occasionally visit them at the hotel.

Most journalists have known about this but they didn't write the story because Khun and Victoria were still on WGM at the moment. You can watch the interview with the journalist here. The journalist admitted that they've been dating for 2 years already! So the rumors are true, aren't they? So, let's pray for our new couple and wish the best for them. KHUNFANY'S SHIPPER FOREVER! - S.L

Dear Future Daughter

Random things just passed by my mind... And I decided to post this thing.

1. When you're at some party, chain smoking on the roof with some strange girl with blue hair and exorbitant large dark eyes. Ask her about her day. I promise you, you won't regret it. Often times you'll find the strangest of people have the most captivating of stories to tell.
2. Please, never mistake desire for love. Love will engulf your soul, whilst desire will emerge as acid, slowly making its way through your veins, gradually burning you from the inside out.
3. No one is going to fucking save you. Anything you've read or heard otherwise is bullshit.
4. One day a boy is going to come along whose touch feels like fire and whose words taste like vanilla. When he leaves you, you will want to die. If you know anything at all, know that it is only temporary
5. Your mental health comes before school, baby. Always. If it's midnight, and you have an exam the next day but your hands have been shaking for the past hour and a half and you're not so sure you want to be alive anymore, go the fuck to bed. So what if you get a bad score on the exam the next day? You took care of yourself and at the end of the day that will always come before a high test score. To hell with anyone who tells you differently.