if she never met him

if she never met him
she would never know how it felt to fall asleep
in the arms of the loved one
she would never know how it felt to wake up
seeing his morning-innocent face
she would never longed for the scent
that trace all over her body
she would never ache
thru the empty cold sheet
or silent solitude

if she never met him
how would she be now?
would she be happier?
or sadder?

how could someone be so close yet so far?

"he's so close, yet so far. he's beyond reach now yet i could still feel his skin lingering on mine. but he's not here, not with me."

physically he's here. yes, with me. but deep inside i just feel we are miles apart. he never talked much anymore, i mean he just went home and greeted me and went to bed. i don't understand why, he might be tired though, but at least...please...i'm here. you used to say that i am your home but now i don't feel i am anymore.