TITANIUM - DAVID GUETTA ft. SIA

You shout it out

But I can't hear a word you say

I'm talking loud not saying much

I'm criticized

But all your bullets ricochet

Shoot me down, but I get up

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose

Fire away, fire away

Ricochet, you take your aim

Fire away, fire away

[Chorus:]

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

Cut me down

But it's you who'll have further to fall

Ghost town and haunted love

Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones

I'm talking loud not saying much

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose

Fire away, fire away

Ricochet, you take your aim

Fire away, fire away

[Chorus:]

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

I am titanium

I am titanium

Stone-hard, machine gun

Firing at the ones who run

Stone-hard as bulletproof glass

[Chorus:]

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

You shoot me down but I won't fall

I am titanium

I am titanium

HE IS NOT AN IDIOT

I have been asked so many times about how could my ex be an idiot and left a beautiful girl like me. I got tired of that question and I won't answer it because that's out of my capacity to do that. The point is I don't want people to assume that loyalty and love are based on beauty and physical appearance. I don't think my ex would fall in love with me that day if he only looked for beauty - because I am just a plain Jane. And I don't think my ex would stick with me that long if he only wanted me for physical appearance - because I am not hot, skinny, or whatever. Guys are easily bored if they only want you for your body. So, I just want my friends and all people out there to stop assuming that it's idiot for a guy to leave a beautiful girl behind. Relationship failed for a reason, guys. We broke up for an exact reason - we both realized that we don't walk in the same path and that this relationship can't be worth fighting for anymore. It's just too complicated for a teenager like us to face this thing, but that's a fact we cannot avoid. He wanted to stick with his principal and I have to understand his will. He is not an idiot because he used to love me just the way I am. CLARIFIED.

ASK BOX ASK BOX 20140122

1. What is your religion or do you not really have one? - Christian
2. Ever had a one night stand? If so, how many and do you regret any of them? - Never
3. Current friend that you have known the longest? - Lisa
4. Name someone you can tell just about anything to? - No one
5. Favorite animal to have as a pet? - Dog
6. How many floors does your home have? - Three
7. How many bedrooms and bathrooms? - Three bedrooms & two bathrooms
8. Do you live in a neighborhood or in the middle of nowhere? - Neighborhood
9. What's your definition of cheating? - Leaving your true love for a night with a hoe
10. Ever cheated on a test? - Yes
11. Do you regret anything? - Yes
12. Name 5 of the most important things in your life? - Family, foods, wifi, oxygen, my phone
13. How many languages can you speak and what are they? - Three. ID, English, Teochew dialect
14. Are you a touchy feely person? - No
15. Do you trust easily? - No
16. Do you have any phobias? - Yes 
17. Are you a heavy or light sleeper? - Light sleeper 
18. Are you a morning person? - Not. at. all.
19. Ever had surgery? If yes, for what reason? - Yes, just a lil injury on my knee 
20. Ever come close to death? - Never
21. Ever broken any bones? - Yes
22. When you die, would you rather be buried or cremated? - Cremated 
23. Have you been told you can sing well more than once? - Yes
24. 3 physical features you get complimented on a lot? - Eyes, hair, cheeks
25. Name your least favorite feature? - Body
26. Name the clothing store you shop at the most? - Berrybenka.com
27. Name a movie or movies you can watch over and over? - Titanic, Narnia
28. Do you have siblings? If so, how many? - Yes, one lil sis.
29. What is/was your worst subject in school? - Chemistry
30. Do you like to dance? - YES
31. Name your 2 favorite colors and why? - Red because it looks so brave and soft pink because it looks girly 
32. Ever had an imaginary friend as a child? - Yes lol
33. Ever been skinny dipping? - Yes
34. Did/Do you enjoy highschool for the most part? - No
35. Who do you live with? - Parents
36. Name your 3 closest friends. Which one is your very best friend? - Lisa, Eria, Tanzalia. Closest one is Lisa.
37. How often do you really "go out"? - Rarely go out
38. Have you ever lost anyone you loved? - Yes
39. Ever been in true love? - Yes
40. On a scale of 1-5 how organized are you? - 3

Survey: Random Questions

1. Have you ever been friends with benefits with someone? - No.
2. Do you want a boyfriend/girlfriend right now? - Sort of. I like being single though.
3. Have you ever been on a bad first date? - Nope.
4. Do you believe that love exists? - Yes.
5. Do you think text s_e_x (where you text someone dirty things) is good? - No. It's retarded.
6. Have you ever had text s_e_x? - Nope.
7. Have you ever gone out with one of your guy/girl friends? - Yes.
8. Is it okay to kiss on the first date? - No, because you don't know the person well enough yet.
9. Are you and your crush friends? - Sort of.
10. If you've ever played spin the bottle or seven minutes in heaven, have you ever had to kiss a nerd? - Nope.
11. How far should you go on the first date? - Just holding hands.
12. Have you ever had a crush on the same person as your friend? - Yes.
13. Do internet relationships work out? - It depends. You really have to work at it.
14. What about long distance relationships? - You would have to really work at it and you would have to see each other a lot but maybe it could work.
15. Is cheating okay if the relationship hasn't been that long? - Not at all.
16. Have you ever cheated on someone before? - Nope
17. If your two best friends (your closest guy friend and your closest girl friend) starting going out, would you feel awkward around them? - If they start making out in front of me, then yes, I would feel awkward. But other than that, no.
18. Are you obsessed with romance? - Yeah, I would say so.
19. What gifts would you like to receive on Valentine's Day? - Jewelry, stuffed animal, card, a box of heart shaped chocolates, flowers.
20. Finally, do you think that if you kissed your closest guy/girl friend, you would fall in love with them? - It would just be awkward, and neither of us would ever bring it up again.

I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO REACT

Six months passed.

And I met him yesterday.

I thought I have moved on.

But turned out I was so wrong.

I forced myself to think that way.

While in fact it wasn't like that at all.

He still lingers at every corner of my heart.

His name still gives me ticklish feeling on my tummy.

Heart beats so fast.

Can't even control myself.

Feel the warmth on my face.

I know it turns red when I hear they say your name.

When you talk to me,

I don't even know how to react.

I act like a fool, a very foolish girl.

Because I'm afraid I'd speak stupid thing that will turn your back away once again.

I really want to know.

Have you ever thought about me like I think about you?

Every day, you are still close to my mind.

Can I have you once again?

My goal is not to wake up at 40, with the revelation that I wasted my life in a job I hate because I was forced to decide on a career in my teens.

COMPLETELY RANDOM QUESTIONS ABOUT LOVE, LIFE, FRIENDS

1. Do you love anyone who's name starts with A? - I used to.
2. When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug? - 5 months ago. 
3. Who is the last person that made you smile? - Someone whose name starts with K ;)
4. Do you lose interest in someone easily? - Yes.
5. Who was the last person you flirted with? - I don't flirt with anyone.
6. Are you dating the last person you kissed? - Not anymore.
7. Has anyone ever asked you if you were bi polar? - No.
8. When is the last time you cried? - Last midnight, when everyone is cheering "HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!"
9. How many people have you given your heart to? - One, so far.
10. Who is the last person that disappointed you? - My ex.
11. What's one thing in your life that you wish you could change? - How I see myself.
12. Do you fall in love easily? - No.
13. Do you still talk to the person you fell the hardest for? - Unfortunately, no.
14. Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to? - No.
15. Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers? - Yes.
16. Are you trying to avoid liking/loving somebody at the moment? - No, love comes whenever we're ready :)
17. Is there someone that you miss right now? - Yes /blushing/
18. Have you ever given your ALL to someone who walked away? - Yes :( 
19. Do you and your last ex hate eachother? - I don't know but I don't feel like hating him ;(
20. Has a friendship ended recently that you wish had not? - Err, yes :(
21. Do you think that people are trustworthy? - No.
22. How many best friends have you had through out you life? - Three, maybe? 
23. Who's the last person that slept over your house? - My uncle and rest of his family.
24. Have you ever regretted kissing someone? - No.
25. Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life? - Yes, I guess. 
26. Has anyone ever made a difference in yours? - Yes but he walked away :(
27. Is someone on your mind right now? - Yes.
28. Are you too forgiving? - I forgive easily but it's kinda difficult for me to forget what they've done to me.
29. Do you want someone you can't have? - No.
30. Is your last ex still someone you care about? - Yes. 
31. How do you feel about your life right now? - It's still beginning of 2014. I still have no idea how I feel about my life.
32. Has someone put their arm around you in the past five days? - No.
33. What'​​​s one thing ​you do when you're mad? - Cry :(
34. Do you tend to fall for players? - No.
35. Do you know anyone who has been arrested? - No.
36. Did the last person you kiss have tattoos? - No.
37. Are you currently sad about anything? - Sad about my weight :(
38. Do you pray to God often? - Each night.
39. How would you feel if your last ex fell in love with someone else? - /silent/ I...never imagine that it'd happen, so... I don't know. I just don't know...
40. Who was the last person who left your life and hurt you? - My ex. 
41. Do you know anyone who died of breast cancer? - No.
42. How long does it take you to get over someone? - 4 months, maybe?
43. Are your parents strict? - Absolutely yes. It's frustrating me!
44. What are you afraid of? - Darkness.
45. Do people often disappoint you? - Yes.
46. Did you wake up in a good mood this morning? - Yes :) Today is a very great day!
47. Are you a good liar? - No.
48. Do you have any mental disorders? - Is frequently talking by myself counted on? 
49. Which one of your friends is the funniest? - Meg.
50. Would you ever forgive your boyfriend/girlfriend for cheating on you? - No.
51. Are you depressed right now? - Er, no?
52. What's the worst thing about your personality? - Two-sided-face.
53. Is there at least one ex boyfriend/girlfriend you can trust? - Yes.
54. Are you picky about who you date? - Yes.
55. Did you like anyone last summer? - Yes.
56. Have you ever liked someone that all your friends hated? - No.
57. Is there anyone that your texting right now? - Yes.
58. Who was the last person that made you upset/angry? - My sister.
59. Do you honestly like the person you are? - Not really.
60. Have you done many bad things in life? - Kinda.
61. Have you ever been arrested? - No, haha.
62. Who's your best friend right now? - I don't know. I best friend myself. LOL
63. Have your parents ever said they were disappointed in you? - Yes.
64. Is there a key to your heart? - Yes. I just thrown it away to a tank full of piranha. Good luck ;)
65. Has anyone ever stabbed you in the back? - No.
66. Have you ever been called a slut? - Yes.
67. What's the most important thing in a relationship? - Commitment.
68. Would you date someone 8 years older than you? - Yes. Older is better.
69. Have you ever broken someone's heart? - Haha, yes.
70. Have you ever kissed someone that was the same sex as you? - Accidentally, yes.
71. What's worrying you right now? - MONEY MONEY MONEY
72. Do you believe in God? - Yes.
73. Does it bother you if someone doesn't like you? - Yes.
74. Would you ever take someone back after they've cheated? - No. 
75. Do you miss any of your old friends? - Yes.
76. Have you ever been used before? - I think so...
77. Where is the person you gave your heart to for the first time? - He's currently staying in different city.
78. Do you believe that there's good in everybody? - Yes.
79. Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of the year? - This is literally the beginning of the year, so...yes. :D
80. Is there someone you will never forget? - Yes. 
81. Has anyone ever written a song for you? - No, I hope someday I will get one. :)
82. Does it annoy you when people play dumb? - Yes.
83. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be? - I won't tell ;)
84. Are you confused about anything? - My feeling.
85. Do you think anyone has feelings for you? - Yes.
86. Are you a jealous person? - Yes.
87. Do you think you could you handle being in the military? - No.
88. Would you ever quit a bad habit for someone? - Yes.
89. When was the last time you gave your number to someone? - I forget.
90. Have you thought about an ex today? - Yes.
91. Who was the last person to compliment you? - Someone whose name starts with K :) 
92. Are you a social butterfly or a loner? - I used to be a social butterfly but then lately I've been through a lot and choose to be alone.
93. Has anyone said they love you in the last week? - Someone confessed to me last week. 
94. Do you ever think about stuff and start crying? - Yes.
95. Are you keeping a big secret right now? - Yes, everyone has secret.
96. Have you ever walked on the beach at night? - No, but I really want to. Lying under clear skies, counting stars,knowing how small you are in the universe, and of course with someone special beside you.
97. Have you noticed that it's mostly girls who post bulletin surveys? - Yes.
98. When was the last time you felt alone? - Last midnight.
99. Do you want to be famous someday? - Yes!
100. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? - Yes.
101. Are you good at hiding your feelings? - Not really.
102. Are there currently any stressful situations in your life? - No.
103. Who is the last person that said you were sexy? - My ex.
104. Did you kiss anyone tonight? - No.
105. Who was the last person you cried in front of? - Mom. 
106. At what age would you most like to get married? - 28.
107. How often do you type ''<3'? - So often, especially when it comes to KPOP things. LOL :p
108. What if your ex found out you fell in love with another person? - Ask him.
109. When was the last time your mom yelled at you? - Two days ago.
110. Do you trust all your friends? - No.
111. Do you believe your latest ex thinks about you? - No.
112. Would you fall apart if that last person you kissed walked out of your life? - He walked out of my life already, and I think I could still survive without him.
113. Do you laugh a lot? - Yes.
114. Anyone say they want to be with you forever? - Yes, and ironically it's my ex.
115. Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart? - Maybe, yes.
116. Do you want your ex to be happy, even if it means not being with you? - No. I'm selfish.
117. Is there a member of the opposite sex on your mind? - Yes.
118. Do you know anyone who would just drop everything to come see you? - No.
119. When's the last time you were surprised? - Last night when one of my schoolmate sent me voice note on BBM, saying happy new year and told me how beautiful I am and wished me a very great year. She's such a sweetie!
120. If an ex said they hated you, what would you say? - Thanks, but I love you.
121. When was the last time you were drunk? - 2010's New Year.
122. Ever taken a picture kissing someone? - No.
123. Are you giving up on anyone/ anything? - No.
124. Is there anyone you wouldn't mind punching at the moment? - Yes.
125. Could you ever be friends with the person who hurt you most in life? - I think yes, I'm very tolerant.  
126. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? - Yes.
127. What's something new you recently learned about yourself? - Finally my face can grows acne! F*! It's all over my forehead!
128. Do your feelings get hurt easily? - Yes.
129. If you see a girl with big boobs, do you automatically think shes a slut? - No, rather than slut I think she's a goddess. 
130. Why did you last cry? - I don't even know why.
131. Would you want to know the date of your death? - No. 
132. Have you ever suspected anyone of cheating on you? - No.
133. Would you prefer a baby girl or boy? - Baby boy.
134. Are you feeling guilty about anything right now? - No.
135. Are you anyone's first love? - No.
136. Would you care if your best friend cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend? - Yes.
137. Whats the last thing you lied about? - Don't even remember.
138. How old were you when you had your first relationship? - 13.
139. What was on your mind mostly today? - Lyrics.
140. Are you in love with anyone at the moment? - No.
141. Have you ever been heartbroken? - Yes.
142. Who is the last person you texted? - Someone whose name starts with K.
143. Who do you trust with your life? - Jesus Christ.
144. Are you very family oriented? - Not really.
145. Are you afraid of falling in love? - No.
146. Isn't it annoying when an ex doesn't leave you alone? - I think no. Find it kind of amazing to know that someone out there is fighting for us. 
147. Who's the last person you told I love you to? - A sweet Korean virtual friend on Twitter.
148. Do you believe that it's best to have a friendship first and then love? - Yes.
149. Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person? - Yes.
150. Are you happy with your life right now? - I think yes.