2016 UPDATES!

Hi! First of all, I really apologize for being inactive for three months since I was getting busy with university and life... Last post was on November, I realized it. Sorry. (for my blog's readers)

In this post, I'm going to summarize what I did on last three months, perhaps the highlights of my life to keep my readers updated with my activities lol (why would anyone interested on what I did? ck.)

As for November, Binus TV celebrated Halloween and it was quite fun for me who didn't really enjoy the ghost party. We watched Babadook and I can't ever forget how creepy the voice of his saying "Babadookdookdook"!!!

Moving to December which was my favorite month of all. First, it's Christmas time! And I traveled to Batam, the birthplace of my boyfie! <3 He took me there to meet up with his family (that's so sweet!) I was there for 5 days (a very short period of visit since he had work to do on the 28th) His family is warm and sweet, and his mom is also a very lovely woman, and also a great cook! It's great since I love eating (nomnomnom)

Christmas Eve's dinner

On January, we had our first anniversary on 25th and since we run out of money (sadly), we didn't celebrate this very special occasion, or even giving each other a gift (duh). Rather we took wefies to heal our sadness :(

February 14th was a very special day for couples since it's Valentine's day. I got him a chocolate cake, and he got me nothing (I didn't expect much either). It was late at night (12am) when we celebrated the Valentine's day. Although I didn't expect much, I was a little bit upset of his unromantic side (I actually cried a bit out of sadness)

Done summarizing! I will try harder to work on this blog more often. So please don't leave me, readers! I'll try my best to keep updating this blog. It's bye from me. Ciao!

Thanks God I've Found You

I just feel so thankful for being deeply loved. 'Cause for all this time, I always thought I was worthless. No one was ever seriously wanted me. They always took me for granted. Never valued me. Treated me like their doll, hurt me like I had no feeling. That's why I come out colder now and speak less.

But he makes me feel worthy and loved. He treats me like I want to be treated by a gentleman. We both may be young, have less experience in relationship, but I do feel so comfortable in love with him. He respects me, my decision, he supports me. He just knows me for weeks but it feels like he has gone through inside me, knowing all goods and flaws I have. I'm not perfect, and he knows it. I have too many flaws and not so confident to show myself. I don't know if he could accept me for who I am or not in the future, but I hope he will. Because it takes so much courage, for me, to trust myself, my heart to someone. Because I'm scared to be hurt again, I'm scared I'd turn to someone I don't want to be.

And I think I never had someone loved me as he loves me in my entire life. Of course, I had people loved me before, but I never felt this kind of love, this is just too hard to be explained. I just feel so thankful.

HE IS NOT AN IDIOT

I have been asked so many times about how could my ex be an idiot and left a beautiful girl like me. I got tired of that question and I won't answer it because that's out of my capacity to do that. The point is I don't want people to assume that loyalty and love are based on beauty and physical appearance. I don't think my ex would fall in love with me that day if he only looked for beauty - because I am just a plain Jane. And I don't think my ex would stick with me that long if he only wanted me for physical appearance - because I am not hot, skinny, or whatever. Guys are easily bored if they only want you for your body. So, I just want my friends and all people out there to stop assuming that it's idiot for a guy to leave a beautiful girl behind. Relationship failed for a reason, guys. We broke up for an exact reason - we both realized that we don't walk in the same path and that this relationship can't be worth fighting for anymore. It's just too complicated for a teenager like us to face this thing, but that's a fact we cannot avoid. He wanted to stick with his principal and I have to understand his will. He is not an idiot because he used to love me just the way I am. CLARIFIED.