Never once

I miss my home

Where countless obnoxious things happened

Shouts, screams, tears, curses, arguments

But never once we’re parted

I miss my home

Where countless picturesque memories rooted

Laughs, teases, a family’s Sunday service, vacations, movie night

Never once we thought of separation

I miss Mom

I miss coming back home having her cooking for dinner

Tasting the most delicious flavor Heaven could ever give for a man

Never once I thought of longing the taste

I miss my sister

How we always end up taking care of each other

Despite of the little arguments and fracas we’ve been through

Never once I thought of missing our small tiffs

I miss Dad

Whom I was the closest to in the family

And understood me the best

Never once I thought that he’s turned to be the most distant

Never once I thought my life would take its turn against me this way

Never once

I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO REACT

Six months passed.

And I met him yesterday.

I thought I have moved on.

But turned out I was so wrong.

I forced myself to think that way.

While in fact it wasn't like that at all.

He still lingers at every corner of my heart.

His name still gives me ticklish feeling on my tummy.

Heart beats so fast.

Can't even control myself.

Feel the warmth on my face.

I know it turns red when I hear they say your name.

When you talk to me,

I don't even know how to react.

I act like a fool, a very foolish girl.

Because I'm afraid I'd speak stupid thing that will turn your back away once again.

I really want to know.

Have you ever thought about me like I think about you?

Every day, you are still close to my mind.

Can I have you once again?

Obsession

You are the only one I have
No one could ever take your place
No matter how hard I try
I can't find anyone to replace you

I hold on tightly so you can't leave
I grab onto you so I won't have to cry
No matter how many times
You throw me away

Even if you walk ahead for a little while
I will follow you
I will protect you
So you can't forget me easily

I can't escape from this trap
Because I have fallen too deep

Always Remember Me (Poem)

Your gentle touch

The warmth of your embrace

The passion of your kiss

Precious times that felt ever so divine

I thought that they would never leave

But...

Even though I can't reach you anymore

I can't open my eyes to find you there

I'll always have my memories

Though they are not as warm as the hands

That always made me feel so safe 

I know they will never disappear as you know have

My beloved,

My heart is forever yours

Even if you're lost

Beyond where my trembling voice can reach you

Even if your memories fade

Or disappear into the darkness

I'll never forget the precious times

When we faced the world together

My beloved,

For today, for tomorrow,

For the days that may never return,

Never forget the words we once exchanged...

"I love you..."

AFTER A WHILE

After a while you learn

The subtle difference between

Holding a hand and chaining a soul

And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning

And company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn

That kisses aren't contracts

And presents aren't promises

And you begin to accept your defeats

With your head up and your eyes ahead

With the grace of a woman

Not the grief of a child.

And you learn

To build all your roads on today

Because tomorrow's ground is

Too uncertain for plans

And future have a way

Of falling down in mid flight.

After a while you learn

That even sunshine burns if you get too much

So you plant your own garden

And decorate your own soul

Instead of waiting

For someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn

That you really can endure

That you are really strong

And you really do have worth

And you learn and you learn

With every goodbye you learn.